15 minutes more to Year 2009

In a few more minutes' time, year 2008 is going to end soon. I think it is overall a year that I had unlimited joy and sadness. I really want to take this opportunity to thank those who are always there for me no matter what's my mood every time.

Yesterday, I went to sleep very early after my revision around 10plus. I was so tired as I didn't get proper sleep for nights. When I woke up this morning, I was very very tired and don't feeling like taking the test. It's a lucky day for me as I feel the test paper was quite easy, not as difficult as I thought. My luck saves me for not receiving other sets of test papers in the room. I just hope I can pass fairly well but it's unlikely to get an A.

Just now, we went to Top One Ktv at Bugis for our k session. I was with 3 Cs and Sharon. We had lots of fun today there. CS's very considered quite participative today in k session at least he is willing to pick up the microphone and sang some songs. After that, we went to eat dinner at Billy Bombers. Some dishes are quite nice such as soup of the day, mushroom soup, which is very tasty.

We decided to head to my house's block to have chit chat session as it was still early for us to go home. We chatted quite a lot and it's a good chance for Sharon to ask as many questions as possible. Haha.

Joey called me around 9plus and asked me to join her, Deborah they all for drinking sessions in a pub at Raffles. I rejected her as I doubt my dad will be happy when I tell him I will not be going home tonight the very last minute. Feel it's a pity to miss out the fun with them once again. The last time was during Christmas Eve.

My stomach is so weird since the afternoon. The feeling is on and off but when I eat something light, I can no long feel the uneasiness. I'm really afraid my 'hao peng you' will visit me just like last year. Please, I hope there will be no sickness on me….

Btw, I want to thank CS for the gift, cap, even though it's a little big in size. =)

Also want to thank CY for sending some movies to me and watch.

Also want to CK and Sharon for accompanying me on the last day of 2008, unlike last year this time, I was working at VE.

Big thank you to all my dearest friends and Cousin Joey!!!

Hope 2009 is going to be a better year for all of us ya….

Happy New Year ^ ^

My mind just can’t stop thinking

Last night, I finally knew part of the incident. I chose to know even though my mood might be affected.

2 confessions in a day. That was really shocking. I didn't know this will happen. I'm happy that there are guys who actually appreciate my characters but upset because I don't know what my feeling towards the two of them is. Maybe they really help me to get out of depression period that's why I like to mingle around with them together with my darling Sharon. Because of this, I guess the three of us couldn't get proper sleep for days. I even think until I can't concentrate on my revision. I can't feel the sense of emergency that the test is coming until yesterday. I went offline very late and tears just couldn't stop. I guess it's the pressure that kept me so upset throughout the night.

However, for the time being… I will not make any decision as I don't have a clear mind of what I want now. I'm sure it also applies to the other two. We shall take this as cooling period to see if the feeling is a form of impulsion. Who knows I may consider either of them in future? I don't know… =) Only god knows I guess… Haha.

I just wish that everyone is happy and everything is back to normal… No matter who I will be with, that is future's matter. So I shouldn't think so much right now. I need to let all of us to place down all unhappiness and face a brand new year. I hope you guys will not give me any pressure anymore. I knew my limitations very well. I don't wish to lose you all.

Today, I heard from Loong that we two, michelle and purdee had a C + for Festival and Event Management individual project. I was really upset. Plus, our accounting teacher said we really did very badly for the test 2. Haiz, I am somehow demoralised. Many people said the Club Resort and Spa test is super hard. I hope I can get the easy paper tomorrow.

Tomorrow, our school operates for half day only. I felt so relief that I am able to go out and chill as I had finished my individual report that is going to due on Friday. I jus handed up today.

Why do i care?

I don't know why i am so concern about things that are happening between the 3Cs.
Am i the cause of everything? Can someone just tell me the truth? I feel so unsecure about what is happening just like a bomb may explode anytime. Things may seen peaceful on the surface but behind it, it has many hidden things that can't be revealed to me.

It seems like this has become one of my big worry now...

Can this be solve asap...?

I need to study for my test peacefully....

=_=

Falling Sick

It was really ridiculous that I started to feel unwell after I took a bath in the afternoon just now. It seems like flu virus is going to attack me. Luckily, I still have some flu panadol medicine left with me. After that I went to take a nap. Feeling better now already. I'm rushing my revision for Club Resort And Spa test which is on wed. I heard from Wenyi that this test has different sets of paper. The tutor is so clever so that it's nt easy for the students to leak out the answers to those who haven't take the test. One bad news, the supplementary will be tested! OMG! Want to die le… Feel like giving up but I know I can't! Must work harder for this semester….

This morning, I wake up early for nothing. I thought the online session is interactive mode but I was wrong. The reflection will be due on 5^th Jan which means I don't need to wake up so early. We still have so much time to complete before posting it online by 5^th Jan…. So silly….

I had a bad dream around 3 plus in the morning last night and was shocked to awake again. I don't know why I was disturbed by weird situations for two consecutive nights. I dreamt that I had dropped into a fast rushing river that was when I jumped out of bed and to go toilet for a break. Hopefully I can have a peaceful night of sleep tonight. Tomorrow have to wake up early as school starts le…

幸福不灭

幸福不灭 罗志祥
篮球火插曲


没原因 就是喜欢你 在初次相遇 又重逢的心情 深呼吸 让心动隐形 完美的爱情 是无声的旋律

听 我听你不确定的语气 等 我等你放下你的犹豫 嘿 如果你轻轻闭上眼睛 我会明白你做的决定

Cause I Believe 那幸福不灭的定律 在你手心 会有谁给你的美丽 静者恒静 就让我的心安静地 守著你

你 等到你爱上他的姓名 爱 如果你没有我的日子 你 难道你可能努力的心 才证明坚定被忘记 (不确定的段落)

Cause I Believe 那幸福不灭的定律 在你手心 会有谁给你的美丽 静者恒静 就让我的心安静地 守著你 把祝福送给你

I believe

Cause I believe 那幸福不灭的定律 你的手心 不一定要由我握紧 就像恒星 总会有发光的原因

Oh I believe 你值得被珍惜

Being frightened to awake

Last night, i went to sleep around 2am. I was frightened to be awake around 3.30am. I could hear quarrel sounds and banging sounds in my room. At first i thought my house was hit by earthquake or not as the banging sounds had vibiration effect on my whole house. Immediately, i rushed to my grandma's room and told her about the scarry sounds. I could sense that my heartbeat was super fast at that time of time. I felt that i was like a little gal who needs a sense of security with someone avaliable to console me. I nearly cried out last night. It has been a long time that i didnt feel this way. Maybe just like what the 3Cs said ba, i'm just a little girl to them no matter what.

Yesterday, finally managed to clean half of my room with the help of my parents. That was really tough as it's really dusty. Lucky my nose was not very allergy this time round. Felt so touched that my dad knew that my nose is very allergic to dust, so he helped me to clean some parts of the room. He also paid for me last month and this month phone bill. I don't know why i feel so touched that my parents do care for me. All the while, i thought they don't really care about my personal life. Feel so fortunate. =)

Today, i went to my friend's house at Serangoon to do project work. I was super hungry throughout the meeting. Finally meeting ended around 7plus then we went to eat at her house nearby coffee shop. Initially, we intended to go Chomp Chomp food place at Serangoon Garden to eat but it was quite late and i was already very hungry. Can't wait or the long queue at Chomp Chomp anymore. Maybe next time, i shall go there again for a big feast...

School starts again tomorrow but i don't need to go to school. Haha, because of some special arrangement of CSIT tutorial. Must remember to log into the internet for online session at 11am will do le... Tomorrow, i really have to start studying my Club resort Spa test! It's coming soon - this wed ,yet so many things to cover within these few days.

Touched…

A moment ago, I received an email from CK. He was really resentful of what he had said this afternoon. I really didn't blame him from the start. Silly ya… Don't brood about it le la. I'm alright. Cheer up alright?

I was really touched by your story just now. It reminds me of Chailert. I really regretted for not sending him off on his departure day instead of going to work. Ck, u are really strong. I know you can hold on de.

Sometimes, even have the destiny to meet someone, whom you like, not if there is not fate, there is no choice to be together. I know this logic very well…

To wrap up, in life, do not let regrets by passes you. Do whatever you can when you are able to do so…. Do let regrets follow you throughout your future.

 

--Fio---

Unconscious

Yesterday, I went to Images of Singapore at Sentosa with my group mates for our make-up field trip. We had lots of fun there with all kinds of stupid poses and comments. Refer to Facebook for the whole photo albums ba.

After that, we went to take away our lunch at Subway in Imbiah Area. There were so many people visiting Sentosa this period as its festive season! We then headed back to Sentosa Campus for our project meeting. The most surprising thing is that I was stung by a mosquito on my thigh even though I wore jeans! So weird la, others didn't kanna yet they were wearing short sleeve shirt and shorts whereas I was in long sleeve shirt and jeans!

After that, I headed to Tampines Mall to meet the 3Cs for movie; IP Man. It was such a great show, really being impressed by the actions. I went to shop for late Christmas gift for Cousin Joey too. I've bought something practical for her; a makeup pounch even though the picture on it was a bit wrong; forever friends bear. Haha. Then she came to my house and we exchange gifts. She also passed me Deborah's gift. Thanks Deborah, I love the bracelet very much…. =) Joee, thanks for the calendar too. Look so sweet and it's very useful to me…

I felt that I was such a slow thinker and feeler. Something big was happening concurrently for weeks yet I didn't even realise anything. After I knew that I am the cause for everything, I really hope I can hide somewhere where they can never see me again. I don't wish because of my presence, their friendship was affected badly. How I wish everything can be back to normal where no one will mention this matter again. I don't wish to lose any one of my dearest friends. My mood was seriously affected today and I felt I was to be blame until my cousin came to my house and I started to regain my own self conscious. Laughter is the best medicine I guess. I knew everyone starts to erase the post that they had made today. But does this means that the problem is solved? I hope so. Everyone is equally important to me. I don't blame anyone for this incident.

PS: CK u are really silly… It's not your fault. I just saw your msn message. Don't be too resentful towards yourself. It also applies to CS and CY ok? Let's put everything behind. I'm feeling better le, no worries. Fiona is not so easily beaten down one! Just remember that I'm not a weak person ok….

Looking forward for a brand new year…

Christmas Celebration 2008

Yesterday, it was Christmas Eve of year 2008. I felt that every one of us did enjoy ourselves for the whole day at Chun Sing's house. Thanks buddy for allowing us to use your house as the place of the celebration.

CK and CY went to my house to carry the steamboat heater from me and we headed to CS house. Sharon went straight to CS house and meets us. After that, we all proceeded to the nearby Shop and Save Supermarket to buy extra ingredients for the steamboat. We bought a very big bottle of orange juices and 2 tubes of ice-cream at an offer price. After that, Sharon and I had made a mess at CS' kitchen…! That was somehow quite embarrassing for the three Cs to know that we did not really know how to prepare the food! But we still manage to do it! Yey…! Just need more practises in this area if I have the free time. ^ ^

After that, they went to have a short gaming session especially Sharon who is totally addicted to Viwawa! Haha! Our dinner started around 7pm just when CS's brother woke up from his long hours of sleep. So surprised to know that his brother actually cooked for us cheesy spaghetti for us. CS's mum just ate a little with us as she had eaten at her workplace before heading home. Then our meal was accompanied with guessing number game! Whoever guessed the correct number will have to eat one item from the steamboat as we still have quite a lot of leftovers. This game was initiated by CS's brother. Thanks for his ideas that helped us to make the meal more exciting!

Our meal ended around 9plus at night and we cooperated to clean the house together. Washing the plates was a challenge as it seems that everyone was fighting for some space to wash the used plates. However, I felt very heart warming to experience this as I was washing my own plates at home alone. The dinner was great!

After that, we started our mah-jong session around 10plus. We had to play very softly as we don't wish to disturb the neighbours. CK did not know how to play so he just sits beside CS to observe. It seems like I'm always not at the winning end when playing mah-jong every time. In the end, Sharon won the most chips from the games. When the clock stroked 12am, I initiated to exchange Christmas present.

The results were:

-CS received my Christmas gift; famous amous

-Cy received Sharon's gift; chocolate- JING SHA

-Ck received CS's gift; a mug with some chocolate in it

-Sharon received CK's gift; hand-made stars and craft (most sincere gift) ^ ^

-As for myself, I received CY's gift; can be placed for decoration with a bear in the middle at the ring. ( I love it, thanks ya!)

After that, we went to watch Young Kindaichi's short movies which I borrowed from my cousin Joey. During that period, I started to feel very sleepy. Luckily, I have snacks and red wine to keep me awake. That CY and CK drank most of the red wine. Although the quality is not really there, the two of them drank the most! CY seems so afraid that I will drink a lot and got drank. Haha! I think he still don't know that I love to drink a lot especially wine until he saw that yesterday… I will just be a little high after drinking wine every time but I knew I am still sober.

After that show, we went to SHOP AND SAVE supermarket again around 5plus to buy some cooling drinks. I was quite surprised that CK was the first one to be down on CS's bed when we were back from the supermarket. I was the next one to be down beside CK as I was too tired to talk with Sharon and CY. CS was the next to be down… CY and Sharon were very energetic to stay awake throughout the night. I was envy of Sharon and CY why they manage to keep chatting when we were taking a short nap. I can hear many WHY questions from Sharon… Haha, cause I couldn't really fall asleep deeply. We all headed home around 9plus in the morning as CY and CK have some church event to attend. Poor CY that he didn't manage to take a glimpse of nap for so many hours. CS also had to head for project meeting this afternoon. Whereas, Sharon and I went home to sleep until the late afternoon. I am still feeling tired and sleepy now. Such a good weather to sleep deeply but I forced myself to wake up or else I will not be able to sleep at night later. Tomorrow, I still have to head to Sentosa- Image of Singapore for some make-up field trip and followed by project meetings.

An hour ago, I received a sms Christmas greeting from Jerald. I was somehow very angry to receive any sms from him. I just hope we can live our own way of live without popping out in each other lives. Maybe I still couldn't put down this terrible relationship experience till now. I hate to say this. I can still feel the pain whenever I had flashback of the memories. I want望情水… Who can serve me this drink?? Nah, I doubt there will be such a drink in this world. It only appears in fairytale land ba…

Ok, I shall stop mentioning the unhappy memories. Irritating memories… Argh!

From here, I will like to thank Sharon, CY, Deborah, Loong for the Christmas gift…. =)

Personal Gift from dearest Sharon

_Thanks ya, you know i love care bear!
So sweet of you =)

Present exchange: Cuiyue's gift

-I love this, coincidentally, the bear has a swarovski crystal at the middle of the bear's stomach!

^ ^

Personal gift from Cuiyue-Unique as i can find in Singapore, it's the characters from Beijing Olympics 2009

HOHOHO! MERRY CHRISTMAS, everyone!!!! SEASON GREETINGS! ( ", )

Next festive season will be A BRAND NEW YEAR! Can't wait for a new year to come!

The day before X’mas Eve

Today, my cousin Joey just received her exam results. So happy for her that she passed all her modules regardless of her afraid she might fail for the most challenging module! Jiayou wor, Joee! Work even harder for the road ahead….


I went to Tp campus today for project meeting from 1pm to around 4plus. After that, I went to Tampines Mall to buy a gift for Sharon. I hope she will like it as the thing is really cute! I love it myself too.I was quite happy that my Dad sponsored us pork for tomorrow steamboat dinner! I love my Dad!! At first, I was quite worried as I thought he would be unhappy about it. Nope… Instead, he even helped me to cut the meat after dinner just now and I marinated the meat. I hope the outcome shouldn't be too bad as I just used my feel and intuition of how much ingredients to add.



I was so surprised to receive a baby seal from Sheng Loong today! I thought I could never find xiao bai anymore in Singapore! He was able to find one! Thank you, Loong!

xiao bai + xiao bai no.2= xiao bai 2

Like a Panda but not a Panda! ^ ^--- from CY

Can't wait for tomorrow's dinner! haha!

A day of fun with Joee

Yesterday, I went out with Joey to Bugis and Orchard to shop for our New Year clothing and accessories. I felt that I had spent more money on Christmas gift more than my clothing for that day. . =_=

Finally, I managed to get a grey short sleeve cardigan at Far East Plaza to match with my pinkish dress which I had ordered online earlier on. I had an enjoyable day with Joee yesterday as we shopped for some ingredients which were to be used for today's lunch. We cooked Japan curry again! I was somehow addicted to that already!! OMG! I had taken some photos on the lightings at Orchard Road yesterday. I did not take many pictures may be I felt that it was too crowded. We went to Orchard because I need to get my Fossil watch repaired. OMG, I need to pay extra $30 bucks for the sworiski crystal on the crown of the watch. I didn't hesitate at the moment as I really like that watch very much. My cousin kept asking me won't I feel sad when I see that watch? Actually not really ba. I just hope that the past is history. Don't need to brood so much about it. The watch shall accompany me as long as possible. I do not know why I like the watch so much. Jus that feeling I guess…

Fio outside HMV Orchard

Fio and Cousin Joey

Lightings along Orchard Road

Then after lunch today, Joey went to meet her friends whereas I decided to go shop for Wednesday's food very last minute. I gave a call to Chunsing and he went to meet me at Simei with Ck. Cy didn't meet us as he was busy. Sharon has to go out with her boyfriend. We bought a bottle of red wine wor! Haha, finally found someone to drink with me red wine le: Cuiyue! I'm sure Sharon prefer beer but I only like Hoegarden beer which she feels that it's nt her type. ^ ^

I have spent all the NTUC back to school vouchers by today. Feel so happy that I got 2 pairs of new shoes in 3 days time without paying any money. Keke… But I feel so regretted that I forget to take some discount vouchers from my mum or else we can save $6 for the food that we bought from NTUC today aiyo….!

Saturday passes very fast ya…

Today I was somehow very angry with the NTUC organisation as I had asked many people from NTUC where I can use the Back to School vouchers. In the end I managed bought the contact lenses solution with the $20 vouchers at Spectacles Hut yesterday. Then today, I went to Bedok interchange's NTUC. We thought the vouchers can be used there on everything but I asked the cashier today she said can only used on stationary. Then when I was about to make payment with my parents, the cashier said cannot use. It can only be used on the specific files. I felt that NTUC union is really bad at communicating with the public as they didn't state the terms and conditions clearly! Luckily, Bata allows us to buy any kinds of shoes there. I don't really like the heels available there. I just bought a pair of canvas shoes at $30; my brother bought a pair of sport shoes at $79 and my mum bought slippers and heels. Haha, I feel so happy that we are not paying a cent for the stuffs. I still have some leftover vouchers which I intend to go Popular Bookstores to buy some stationary.

Adapted from Cui Yue's Blog:

7月14日 生日花：白色羽扇豆（White Lupin） 花语：多才多艺（Highly Accomplished） 　　一九一七年在德国汉堡市所举行的羽扇豆巡礼展，内容包括：羽扇豆布料、羽扇豆浓汤、起司、酒、咖啡及肥皂、信纸等等。这的确是一种用途广泛的植物，因此它的花语是－多才多艺。 　　凡是诞生於这一天的人天赋异秉、多才多艺，唯独在感情上表现得极为笨拙，不过笨拙的模样反而惹人怜爱！

 

Somehow, I feel that it's rather accurate. Especially about the part where I am not very good at handling relationship situation.

I am finally enlightened by Loong's sentence just now when we were online.-'to touch a girls' heart constantly without betraying them is understanding'--- that is what I am looking for~ ^ ^

Today, I finally arranged our Christmas eve program. We planned to go Chun Sing's house for steamboat in the evening time. So we'll have to go and buy ingredients in the noon time. I guess there will be 5 people- usual 3Cs, Sharon and myself. Then we will exchange present! Yeye!!! Just now Loong told me he have got me a very meaningful X'mas present! Can't wait for tues to arrive man!! Keke.

Tomorrow, I will be going to Bugis and Orchard to shop for CNY clothing with cousin Joey. I guess it will be a very tiring day as we need to do a lot of walking. Then I will be heading to her house for the night. HAha, can go and K songs in the night time at her house again le… =)

 

Experience in Housekeeping

It has been really a tiring exposure program even though Elieen and I had fun at Housekeeping Department, Mecure Roxy Hotel for the past five days. We had learnt a lot from the Housekeeping department. We two were enjoying ourselves throughout the five days.

Day 3

We were attached to one of the supervisors, Ivy Auntie, who was a Singaporean. We seem to get along with her well and easily. She is a very out-going person. She shared a lot of her past years experience and we were listening to her with curiosity! Haha. We followed her to supervise the room's cleanliness and tidiness. Now, I roughly know how to check the rooms as a supervisor. Ha-ha!! We even went for lunch together with Ivy Auntie at the canteen. On the second half of the day, we two were attached to the Assistant Exe Housekeeper, Ms Tan for a while. She shared with us how to handle real life special situations that happened in the hotel- housekeeping department. On that day, the Head of housekeeping dept was on half day leave. We also requested to Ms Tan to let us go early as Eileen has CYA-airport duties to attend while I was rushing to meet the 3Cs for early dinner at Parkway Parade. After that, I went to watch the CO concert at NYA with CY and Joey. Joey's friend could not make it last minute as he was sick. So we wasted one ticket. The concert was quite nice. I love the songs especially 菊花台 by the guzheng ensemble as it reminds me of the times during secondary 1 and 2 when I was in guzheng club. I also missed the times when I was in SYF band competition when I was in sec4. The feeling of standing on the stage, making music with your team mates!

Day4

We were attached to the laundry department in Housekeeping. Madam Salmah is a very nice person too. However, she is more likely to ask us help her do things like collect and send laundry to and from guest rooms. We feeling so excited initially as we can go into guest rooms with the card on hand in order to collect and send the laundry. We felt so honored that the hotel management trust us so much that they borrow us the key card to all the 500plus rooms for doing the task. However, one concern was that we were so afraid to meet some troublesome guests and who is going to be responsible if we had done something wrong like send to wrong rooms etc.

Day 5

Today, which is the last day of attachment, we followed one of the supervisors, Jack, again. We followed him on the first day. He explained many things related to his tasks too. He also shared is us what are the some problems that he met such as he is keen to go for English courses before he become supervisor officially but it seems like the management keeps delaying. Hope Jack and other Chinese speaking workers will have more chance to excel in English language in the coming months. ^ ^ After that, we were invited by the Executive Housekeeper, Mrs. Lee, to dine at Feast at East buffet restaurant. We had a big feast today!!! I had chocolate fondue, mango pudding, durian paste and cake. Durian paste is the most famous signature dessert for this restaurant. I will recommend this restaurant to u all… It's really delicious but a bit pricey for dinner. After lunch, we went to Mrs. Lee's office for information sharing session by Mrs. Lee. We really learnt a lot more today about what is the role of Executive Housekeeper.

fio in formal wear

I really hate Loong's 假设性relationship question man! I still remembered last time he used to ask me what if the guy whom I like stay in Jurong, will I be with him? It came true! Now he asked me what if Kenneth confessed to me when we were watching movies and hold my hand. What will I do? Now it somehow come true half of it. He passed me a gift before we left. It' a shirt from body nits. He puts in effort in preparing this gift as he used paper strips tear from magazines and placed it inside the box with the shirt. I asked him why he bought for me. He said because he likes me. I was trying to avoid this answer. Before he went offline just now, he said the same thing again. I don't know how to handle this anymore. I know clearly I am not suitable to be in relationship now. I don't have the mood to do so. I feel that it's better to be single for the moment. I told Loong about how my feeling towards him on Tuesday night online. He seems to be persuading me to go for relationship with Kenneth now but I have my own stand. I prefer to go out with guy and gal friends now but not boyfriend now. I started to feel awkward when he said that to me tonight.

2nd day of Housekeeping Exposure Program

It was a boring day in the first half of the day as the Executive Housekeeper of the hotel wants us to attach to the Housekeeper co-ordinator who is the one answering all the internal and external phone calls. We were sitting beside the HK co-ordinator and observe what she was doing. We were observing her ever since before the lunch break until one plus in the noon after the break. We went to NTUC supermarket with the Executive Housekeeper after lunch break for a while as there were two staffs that were hospitalised. Coincidentally, they are in the same hospital. We went to help and shop for some fruits. That was super heavy. The three of us each carry a very heavy bag back to the hotel.

During the second half of the day, we were instructed to count the number of torchlight in the 3 big boxes for her. That was really a tough process as we were wearing skirt and had to squat down to do the counting since we can't carry the boxes up. After that, we went into the Executive HK's office to have a chat. She had shared a lot of information with us regarding the whole hotel's operation. I am now clearer with the whole picture. She even went through the Profit and loss statement for room department with us! So shocking when I knew that as it was considered a private document of the company. I am now feeling very tired as I had not been sleeping well last night. I thought I could sleep so well since I was tired but I tossed in my bed till 1plus I think. Tomorrow has to report at 8am, which means I have to wake up by 6.15am to do my hair. Then I will be meeting the 3Cs for early dinner at Marine Parade since Mercure Roxy is just located opposite Parkway Parade. CY will be joining me, my cousin and her friend for Chinese Orchestra concert at NYP tml night. Hope it will be worth watching or else it will be a waste of my energy and time….

Fun days

It has been one week that I did not update my blog. So sorry about the delay as I was quite lazy to update when the day times started. Haha!

Last Tuesday, I had my finance accounting paper in the late afternoon and that was really badly done. When I realised that I had done one of the question wrongly, I have no time to alter my answer by then as time's up. Haix. I had to console myself by going for a big feast after the paper with Loong,Fungyi, EeLing and her brother at Tampines Mall Seoul Garden. So happy that the store manager allowed me to have10% discount even though my OCBC debit card has not enough money to be entitled for the discount. When I first saw Eeling's brother, I was stunned as he changed a lot in terms of appearance. He has become taller and bigger in size. He seems to be very shy on that day maybe because if long and my presence as I heard from Fungyi that Eeling's brother is not like this during last few meetings.

On Wednesday, we started on our project work as we were in the rush of time to finish it before Purdee is flying to Cambodia tomorrow. Then on Thursday, it was also a long day. We split into 2 groups. Loong, Purdee and Rachel went to Sentosa for site inspection while Michelle, Angelia and I went to Jurong for site inspection and enquire some information. After that, we met at cityhall for further project discussion. We sat at Starbucks until 5plus. That was a tiring day. When the project ended, I headed to Raffles Mrt station to collect the NTUC back to school vouchers. I think I had spent more than 5 bucks on transportation for that day….=_=''' so heartpain la.

On Friday, there was no project meeting as Rachel has something on. Therefore, I took this opportunity to go out and have a great day!!! I went to party world ktv at Woodlands Civic Centre with cuiyue and chikeung. Cy and I were craving for ktv and ck seems so shy to sing. Hope he will sing more of his favourite songs of Gu Ju Ji when we go ktv next time! Don't be shy le la, Ck! It's a pity that we can pull Cs along. He was not interested in k-ing songs with us. Sharon didn't join us for k session as that was her last day of school. I didn't tell her in advance as I do not wish to affect her attendance in school. It's really a bad influence to ask her skip school man... After that, we met CS for lunch at Pastamania. After that, Sharon went to causeway point and met us for movie, Twilight. I felt very bad for asking CK to pay the full movie ticket pricing of $10.50 while the rest of us paid student price at $6. The show is fantastic but it's a shame that CS, CK and CY did not really understand and appreciate the storyline. The show didn't have any subtitles as it was a sneak preview. Actual screening is this coming Thursday. Luckily, Sharon and I still managed to catch the main storyline of the show even though everyone had difficulty catching what the characters were speaking. After the show, we headed to Market 85 by bus number 168. I regretted for not taking 168 to woodland in the first place. It was really quite fast as compared to mrt. On the way, I used my lappie to watch show, butterfly lovers starred by wuzhun and HuGe. It was really a sad show. After watching the show, my mood was super low. The meal with secondary classmates was not too bad. Jermaine was not feeling very well so he didn't go on that day. Those who were present were, the usual us with Marcus, Karen, Alvin and Jian Xian. I was really grateful that CK and CS helped me to carry my heavy lappie on that day. Thanks ya! I rejected Sharon for coming to my house to stay on that day as I was really tired after a very eventful day outside. HopeS Sharon will not blame me for my indecisiveness these few days. There are too many things I always wanted to do but I can't possibly do all at once. So sometimes, don't take my words too seriously ok. You just need to confirm with me again for any plans in future. Overall, it was a great outing on that day! Thanks friends. We shall have our outing soon this week again ya…. ^ ^

On Saturday and Sunday, I stayed at home the whole day to complete my assignment; culture individual project. Finally finished! Yea! Thanks all the effort to Kenneth. He did help me to do some research on Bali's culture. Yesterday, I was quite nervous about today's housekeeping exposure program. I could not sleep well initially but eventually fall asleep as I was tired.

Today, the exposure program at Mecure Roxy Square Hotel was very exciting. Another from HTM also went to the same hotel as me. Her name is Elieen Goh. We've learnt a lot of things about housekeeping department. It was not like what we had expected initially. I thought housekeeping is all about cleaning rooms. But today, the program has proved me wrong. Housekeeping is coordinator between public area, room attendance, decorations of festive season, laundry and administrative staff. Each section has its own duties to fulfil. I feel that there is really lack of local manpower in the housekeeping industry. There are many workers who are in Nationalities of China and Malaysia. It seems like what I had learnt in finance accounting has come into application this time. The admin worker of housekeeping department shared with us more information about ordering and receiving procedures of goods. Initially, I thought the manager of the housekeeping department, Mrs Lee, was a very strict and stern person. It had proved me wrong as she is really a nice person after all. She brought the two of us around in the first part of the day and handed us to her subordinates to bring us around. I can understand why she did this as she is tied up by a lot of work. She even treated us a drink at the lobby café this morning before lunch time. We had quite an interactive chat today. That's why we started to realise that she is a nice person. We had done a lot of walking around the hotel rooms today, felt so tired now. I'm sure that I'll be able to have a good night of sleep today. However, on wed, we have to report by 8am! OMG! This is because the person whom we're attached with is working morning shift for that day. We'll be able to go home by 4pm on wed and I can head off to watch the Chinese Orchestra Concert at NYP. My uncle has bought these tickets because of business goodwill and one ticket costs him $100. That was really costly la!

Life now is just like holiday

I have been staying at home ever since last Friday. I had resisted any temptation for me to go out to relax as it will cost me a bomb if I were to do so. I promised myself I will spend money after the mid semester test which is tomorrow. I started my revision for finance accounting ever since Thursday night. Therefore, I feel very irritated whenever I forced myself to revise the work again and again. Somehow, I am sure that I know the concepts well except that I have no confident on the level of difficulty that the teacher is going to set.

 

I am really glad that Sharon has settled her relationship stuff with her boyfriend once again. Hope she has gained and learnt something from this incident. Everyone is learning including me. Learning is part of parcel in life. Somehow, I feel very relax during this period of time even though my paper is tomorrow. For these four days, it is like heaven to me. Don't need to worry where to get my food. My mah mah will always be there to prepare food for me whereas I am alternating my time with eating, watching my drama shows and sleeping. Haha… Sound very lazy right….

 

Tomorrow is the one and only paper for this mid semester test yet no one has initiated where to go after that. Haiz… That Sheng Loong confirms want to go roller blading one. I hope to do something which is more towards my interest like singing at k, watching some relaxing movie or chill out at some good places. Let's see how the plan will be tomorrow ba.

Ever since yesterday, I feel that my right eye is swollen and pained. I was even so silly to think that I'm going to be blind soon! Silly…> < I was somehow touched that Kenneth had given me a surprise today. I was out from bathing not long ago and I received a call from him. He told me to go down as he was around my area. So touching as he especially bought me an eye cream from face shop and travel down to bedok and passes it to me. I am really shock of what he had prepared. However, I do not know why I had an inner voice telling me to stay awake; do not accept any guys so easily from the previous heart breaking experience. From this I can judge his character half way as I do not know if this is only the courtship attitude. I know clearly what I want eventually. A guy who is really true to me but not to impress me. I will heed Loong's advice to observe people more clearly especially guys before I make any decision. Anyway, I still want to thank Kenneth for his special thought. ^ ^

I was quite shocked to know that wenyi cannot go for the housekeeping scheme next week due to some issues in student passes holder. It's such a waste that she cannot go to 4 seasons hotel this time. It's ok, I'm sure she will definitely have other opportunity in future… Jiayou, everyone!!!

One day of hard work

I was at home today the whole day. I finally had the opportunity to wake up around one in the afternoon. I received a sms from a person from Roxy Mercure this morning. I was really surprised I was chosen for the housekeeping scheme after a short phone interview yesterday during my travel and transport class. The person said she will call me before five in the afternoon yesterday but I was somehow disappointed that I did not receive the call. That's why I was quite shock to receive this news when I woke up. Initially, I console myself that if I didn't get into this scheme, it's a good opportunity for me to rest at home and rush out my 2 other individual assignments that are going to due on early Jan of next year. It's a pity that I didn't get into the same hotel as wenyi. She has been posted to 4 seasons. That's so lucky =)

 

Therefore, I decided to rush my Contemporary Special Interest Individual assignment today. I sat down in front of my com from 1plus until 7plus just for this assignment. Phew! Finally finished! Oh yeah! I just need to do some editing to polish the whole report. I was able to finish today because I had done a comprehensive research a few weeks before. Now, I just need to concentrate fully on my finance acc revision as the mid semester test is on Tuesday.

 

Last night, Sharon called me. I just got to know that she's unhappy due to her relationship problems. It seems like I was bad at consoling people. In the end, she seems to feel like I was not there for her as friend. I was really upset when I saw this in her blog today. Even though I may not agree how she is handling a relationship, all the things I said just hope to ease her unhappiness. But in this case, she doesn't think the same as me. I really hope she can take things easy and be a cheerful person like in the past. All the things I said can only be advice for her. It all depends on how she is going to deal in her relationship. The only way to stay free from unhappiness is to look on the brighter side of life. This is what I have learnt so far. The more you are tense up on a particular thing, the unhappy the person will be. Therefore, I feel that I am becoming a more carefree person in this few weeks in terms of relationship aspect. However, I am now more concern towards friendship. I feel that friends are very precious. Maybe I am too tense up in studies that are what many people feedback on me. I should try to chill myself down. Don't be too concern with the coming deadlines. I just need to have myself pace.

 

One last advice for my dearest Sharon darling, please don't be too bothered in relationships matters le ba… I just hope to see your smile…. =) Cheer up.

disappointed with finance acc test 1

Today i just received my accounting test 1 result. At first i thought i can score at least a B+ for it. To my disappointment, my group mates and i score around 26-27 marks upon 40. I and loong lost most of the marks in Q1c which weights 9m. We merely get half of it. Sobx.... I really study very hard for this test yet stil cant score for it. The marking scheme is like very vague to us. I was somehow disheartened when i knew i did quite badly for it. Next Tues is my acc test 2 yet i dun hav confidence in this area anymore. I think i really need to go temple and bai bai liao la....

Last Saturday, i was my travel and transport test 1. It was held at TP campus in the late morning. I was quite surprised that i can score 36/50. Not too bad. After that i went to meet Kenneth for lunch and to collect my bag which i ordered online. Lesson learnt. I will never order bags online again. The quality is really nt there. Looks like it will spoil after a few times of usage. The some of threads on the outer layer bag has already drop off. Argh!

After that, i went to met Joey at white sands and we went to shop for grocery at NTUC. Haha, we cooked curry noodles on that evening. That was so delicious and full!! We were watching some cable tv taiwan variety show while eating our dinner in the living room. That was so realxing man.... After that, we had a ktv session in her ktv room. That was so shiok man, i had a mini personal concert for that night. ^ ^ Feel so happy when got to sing out my feelings finally! I headed home on sun afternoon while Joey went to meet her friends for an outing trip. Poor her that she fell sick once her exams finished. She must be too weak after using too much of her brain cells.... Must take care wor, everyone, especially term test is coming....

Yesterday, i didn't head hm straight after my lesson. I went to meet the 2 C(yue and keung) for dinner as keung helped me to buy a laptop cooling fan at IT fair on sun. So surprised that he is gd at bargaining la! He helped me to get that at 10 bucks instead of 19. Thanks pal! Must bring him to shopping next time and help me slashed price la. Like that can save more money. Hahah!! Too bad Sharon and another C-Chun Sing cant join us. Sharon said she had promise her mum to dine at hm for that day while Sing is tied up with project stuff till late evening. It's ok, our gathering is coming soon! Yeah.... =)

on-going activites

Last wed, our Club, resort & spa tutor arranged our class to go Spa Bontanica resort at Sentosa for a field trip. It was really an eye-opening experience for us. We managed to tour around the spa garden and resort area. However, due to the bad weather, we were unable to tour the villas. That's really disappointing. The presidential suite costs only 1100+ dollars per night. It is really long in size that can accomodate many people. There's also a walk-in wardrobe which many ladies wish for. The wardrobe area can accommodate at least 10 people at one go. OMG... How i wish i have such a big wardrobe.

After the field trip, my group members and i headed back to Sentosa academy to have our lunch at the RITZ restaurant. I was anticipating for my duck confit. The headwaiter of the restaurant for mon told us that there'l be duck confit on wed but they've made a mistake! So disappointing.... Somemore, the appetitzer doesn't fit my preference. The salad served was too raw. Really hope they will be more accurate in providing information in future.

Then i had an finance & accounting test on last fri evening. Hope i've done not too bad for it. Results will be out on next tues. I also went to have dinner with Kenneth. His birthday fell on saturday, 22nd. So i had an earlt birthday celebration with him. We went to Blue Oasis restaurant at Century Sq. There were too many people indoor, therefore, we took the outdoor seats. I was satisfied as I finally have the chance to eat duck confit. Overall, i feel the service provided was very good. The waiters are very friendly and they took initiative to help me top-up my water.

On last saturday, i went out with Sharon, Chun Sing, Cui Yue and Chi Kueng. That was an early birthday celebration for Sharon. Initially. Cairong was supposed to join us too. But she has something on in the very last minute. We had a great day~ We went to dine at raffles city cafe cartel. I was so blur that i didnt know it was just located at the entrance of raffles city. I walked a big round at level one inside raffles city until i called chunsing to ask for direction. I had bought a small winnie the pooh cake at bangawan solo. Her feedback is not very nice. I shall never buy that kind of cake in future. So sorry, sharon.... Didn't buy a nice cake for you this year. I shall buy a quality cake for you next year then... =) After the meal, we went to watch Madargascar 2 at Suntec City. This was so last minute, haha! Then i even made a mistake in finding the actual seats cuz we had missed the first part of the movie. Feel so paiseh when there were people looking for their seats which we had occupied. After the movie, we went to chilled at Starbucks for a while before we headed home.

Sharon went to stayed at my house for the night. I specially bought Hoegarden beer for us to drink during the night time. We didn't manage to watch any movie except to browse random shows. I should have prepare more shows before hand. We went to sleep at around 4plus as Sharon started to feel sleepy le. That was the most funny part as we two squeezed in a single bed filled with pillows and huggies. Although feel a bit difficult in sleeping properly, i feel so warm-hearted that best friends can actually sleep together in my room. Very rare thing to happen.

This tues, i just handed up one online blog assignment. Feel so relaxed when i completed my assignment long before the deadline. There is also another one assignment dueing on coming tues. I had printed out on mon and binded the report yesterday. Since yesterday night until today morning, i was trying to concentrate on my revision for the coming online travel and transport test tml. However, i feel that i was really distracted by the online shows that i'm chasing now. haha.... Still manage to finish the revision...

Encouragement

I think it's a great news that i am healing at a faster pace as compared to the past. I still could remember that my first break-up took me more than three months to accept the reality. However, i think lessons learnt from the past have turned me into a person who is able to accept reality more easily. If i say i have already put down this relationship by now, it's still a lie. Even till now, i will take a quick look if he is online and what's his nick on it. Really kapo right. See already, make me feel even more uncomfortable.

Really want to thank one person specially, Joey. She sent me a jap song that is very encouraging to me. The lyrics are very meaningful. Tells me to be strong even i always lost the precious things in life. Really thanks, my dearest sis! I will work hard.... ^ ^

HIKARI - Light

English Translation

The light that makes a journey to find love
Continues to chase after the future captured in my heart
If you open the hesitating door
You can walk into a new tomorrow

Painful memories
Sink deeply in the depths of my heart
The pain of loneliness
That no one else knows

Why do I always
Lose the most precious things?
The neverending rain
Sings of sadness again

Ah, without anyone noticing
I wander aimlessly in this town
Hey, even though
The truth can't be seen
You should believe in the path within yourself, it's there

The light that makes a journey to find love
Continues to chase after the future captured in my heart
If you open the hesitating door
You can fly into a new tomorrow

A teardrop floats through the wind
The flowing clouds and the blue skies beyond my reaches
I look up, alone, and take a vow quietly
That I will live embracing the neverending dream

The light that connects the faraway wish
It will surely bring hope and courage
Instead of counting the time that has passed
Let's make most of our time now

If your wish isn't granted and you are hurt
You just need to start over again from there, again and again
That's right, there isn't just one answer
You'll find happiness one day

What's Your Power Color?

Your Power Color Is Indigo

At Your Highest: You are on a fast track to success - and others believe in you. At Your Lowest: You require a lot of attention and praise. In Love: You see people as how you want them to be, not as how they are. How You're Attractive: Your dramatic flair makes others see you as mysterious and romantic. Your Eternal Question: "Does This Work Into My Future Plans?"

What's" Your Power Color?

What the Beach Test Says About You

What the Beach Test Says About You

You tend to be a very social person. You live for your friends and family. You can get social burnout occasionally though. You aren't a total extrovert. You fall in love with ease and confidence. Even if you've had bad experiences in the past, each new love is a reason to start completely over. You are a passionate person. You are free wheeling, fun loving, and ruled by your emotions. Your sense of humor is intellectual and obscure. Only really well educated people get your jokes.

The Beach Test

Happened to see this test on Cousin Joey's blog. Appear to be quite true for me... =)

What Your Cute Monster Says About You

What Your Cute Monster Says About You

You are a simply happy person. You still view the world with a childlike innocence. You have an easy going attitude, and you value harmony. You love freely and inspire others to love. You inner demon is frailty. You are easily beaten down by life. People think you're cute because you are optimistic. Your outlook on life is charming.

The Cute Monster Test

HUMANMETRICS: Jung Typology Test

Your Type is ESFJ
Extraverted
Sensing
Feeling
Judging

Strength of the preferences %
11
25
88
22

Qualitative analysis of your type formula You are:
slightly expressed extravert
moderately expressed sensing personality
very expressed feeling personality
slightly expressed judging personality

Extraverted Sensing Feeling Judging by Joe Butt
Profile: ESFJRevision: 3.0Date of Revision: 23 Feb 2005

Guardians of birthdays, holidays and celebrations, ESFJs are generous entertainers. They enjoy and joyfully observe traditions and are liberal in giving, especially where custom prescribes.
All else being equal, ESFJs enjoy being in charge. They see problems clearly and delegate easily, work hard and play with zest. ESFJs, as do most SJs, bear strong allegiance to rights of seniority. They willingly provide service (which embodies life's meaning) and expect the same from others.
ESFJs are easily wounded. And when wounded, their emotions will not be contained. They by nature "wear their hearts on their sleeves," often exuding warmth and bonhomie, but not infrequently boiling over with the vexation of their souls. Some ESFJs channel these vibrant emotions into moving dramatic performances on stage and screen.
Strong, contradictory forces consume the ESFJ. Their sense of right and wrong wrestles with an overwhelming rescuing, 'mothering' drive. This sometimes results in swift, immediate action taken upon a transgressor, followed by stern reprimand; ultimately, however, the prodigal is wrested from the gallows of their folly, just as the noose tightens and all hope is lost, by the very executioner!
An ESFJ at odds with self is a remarkable sight. When a decision must be made, especially one involving the risk of conflict (abhorrent to ESFJs), there ensues an in-house wrestling match between the aforementioned black-and-white Values and the Nemesis of Discord. The contender pits self against self, once firmly deciding with the Right, then switching to Prudence to forestall hostilities, countered by unswerving Values, ad exhaustium, winner take all.
As caretakers, ESFJs sense danger all around--germs within, the elements without, unscrupulous malefactors, insidious character flaws. The world is a dangerous place, not to be trusted. Not that the ESFJ is paranoid; 'hyper-vigilant' would be more precise. And thus they serve excellently as protectors, outstanding in fields such as medical care and elementary education.

Source: http://typelogic.com/esfj.html

What Tarrot Card are You?

You are The Moon
Hope, expectation, Bright promises.

The Moon is a card of magic and mystery - when prominent you know that nothing is as it seems, particularly when it concerns relationships. All logic is thrown out the window.
The Moon is all about visions and illusions, madness, genius and poetry. This is a card that has to do with sleep, and so with both dreams and nightmares. It is a scary card in that it warns that there might be hidden enemies, tricks and falsehoods. But it should also be remembered that this is a card of great creativity, of powerful magic, primal feelings and intuition. You may be going through a time of emotional and mental trial; if you have any past mental problems, you must be vigilant in taking your medication but avoid drugs or alcohol, as abuse of either will cause them irreparable damage. This time however, can also result in great creativity, psychic powers, visions and insight. You can and should trust your intuition.

What Tarot Card are You?Take the Test to Find Out.

---Quite true ^^

Long weekend

It has been a week after the break up. I thought i will actually take things easy by now but i was wrong. I still suffer from the after effects of break up. My mind will still wonder about the past events.

On last fri, my group mates and i went to Pulau Ubin for site inspection. That was my first time going there. I didn't know that we have to cycle around the island that's why i brought my normal sch side shoulder bag. I had to trouble michelle to help me carry throughout the journey. Since young, i do not really learn to cycle. So i also troubled Sheng Loong to cycle with me in a twin bike. We felt so cheated by the bicycle shop which we went to. The gear of the twin bike was not working in its best condition. This lead us to stop the journey more than three times. One thing we all were scared was being attacked by scent flies. Once bitten by scent flies, the female ones will lay eggs on the bitten wound. It was hard to discover as the scent flies were small and white in colour which was also invisible. It was a little expensive to travel there as the cost of ferry for 2 way was 5 bucks. The island is really ulu with no proper medic facilities. At the later part of the journey, Purdee had fall down from the bike and hurt her knee... She also felt giddy after a while. Poor Purdee... Therefore, we decided to give up our trip to Chek Jawa and headed back to the starting point. After the whole event, i became tanned with uneven skin tone!

We went to Subway at Changi Village to have our lunch when the trip ended for the day. I then headed to Sentosa Academy to meet Wenyi for photo taking session of the campus. Our last destination was Esplanade for our field trip report. It was quite interesting even though we didn't really watch finish all the shows everytime. Finally, i had bought the havannas slippers. Silver colour was the only colour left for my foot' size. I bought it because i'm really desperate for a new pair of slippers that is comfortable and lasting.

After an eventful Friday, i stayed at home on Saturday to have adequate rest. I suffered from bodyache when i woke up yesterday. I was rushing the field trip report for fesival and event mangement assignment. Finally completed the report but i still need to decorate the blog. I was alternating between report and hk drama series. Getting more and more exciting although it's very long-winded.

Today, i went to the Singapore Teddy Bear Show at Arts House with Kenneth. We had some difficulty locating the place initially but due to woman's intuition, we found the place. Although the showroom is not very big, i was really amused by the different bears that the artists have made. Some bears cost up to 1400 dollars. The reason is the accessories are real which make the bear to be very elegant overall...

After that, we went to watch Quantance of solance. The theatre at Suntec Eng Wah was super cold. I should have wore long pants and shirt. The show was generally exciting but i was unable to relate back to the previous show; casino royale. Some parts were linked back to that yet i had no impression about casino royale.

I had done a very silly thing just now. I went to my house's nearby 7 Eleven to buy a can of Carlsberg as i was feeling emo again. I started to drink that beer while watching my hk series. After a few sips, i then know that this will not help to ease my unhappiness in my heart so i threw it away without finishing it.

Complicated

Why i still have the urge to see you again even i was hurted badly. I feel that i'm so weaked at times. I have tried so hard to forget the memories that we had for the past few months. Though i seems to be alright to most people these few days and i told them i'll be alright soon, i am still a weak minded person afterall... I seems to be just acting tough. I hope i'm not. I really wish that i can take things easy as i wanted all along.

I will still think of certain things even things are no longer important to u. If we were still together, this day is the 4th mth. I know it's pointless to mention this again... But.... Feel like crying again but i want myself to hold back my tears. Cant the pain just go away? I really have no more courage to face the reality of relationship between couples. I always told people around me that i do not wish to go into relationship by now but deep down in my heart i hop there will be a guy who is willing to take gd care of me. Just that i will nt dare to commit from now.

Very frequent, i told Joey that it seems like i'm suffering from karma. I maybe a playgirl in my previous life that is why i cant get a gd return in any relationships so far. Why a gd people who have no bad intention at all may not necessary get a gd return? Life is always so cruel and unfair....

The most painful process in life

Once again, i'm out of relationship again. I cried and cried when i knew there was no turning back. In this relationship, i took the courage to confront him. I guess this time i did something that is very couragous. It was really unexpected.


My heart feels as if it was stabbed by thousands of knives when i knew he had no more feelings for me long ago. I felt i'm so silly to keep on waiting as if he will treat me better one day. I was wrong. I initated a break-up immediately even though it's against my wish.


He tried to explain that we two couldn't work out because he finds it difficult to communicate. He finds it stressed up when i start to pin high hopes on him. He thinks that he is not the guy i wanted all along as he's so many things that i dun like. In fact i told him, if he were to give more concern for me, i will not even think of his negative side. But he didn't.


I felt really upset even i woke up this morning. I had quite a peaceful sleep last night. Thanks to my dearest friends and cousin. (Sharon, Loong n Cousin Joey) I managed to sleep well after chatting with them. At least i know i'm not alone at all. There are people who still cares about my well-being. When i was on my way to school this morning, i received msg from Joey n Veralyn. They really touched me to the bottom of my heart. Even Caryl n deborah send regards to me through Joey. I also want to thank Sarah, Kenneth, cousin Daniel n Winnie... N those who tried to cheer me up.


No worries... After the walk towards the small island from Palawan beach this afternoon with loong, i felt more relieved. It is a place that can calm me down naturally. I like that place a lot. Maybe that will be my cosy place where i can have reflection whenever needed. It helps to clear my messy thoughts within a short period of time.


I told someone that from today onwards, i will shred a tear for him. The original Fiona should revived from now on. I want to be my very ownself. No more hidding of emotions or feelings from ppl. I want to stay happy with a very optimistic attitude in life. I need the energy to go n deal with a pile of assignments n tests. I will not want to worry those who are around me. I just need a period of time to heal from this hurtful experience and a lot of disractions..... I need to keep myself occupied as i know it's not easy to let this go in such a short period of time.


Jiayou, 梁宛玲!!!!!!! Don't let urself down..... !

a long break during lunch

Today, it's bascially a very tiring day. When i stepped into the classroom at 9am this morning, i realised that the tutor is really familiar. I then knew who is he. He was invited to give a talk about 4 seasons hotel during one of the last few BESE lectures in the previous semester. He is the one who kept pacing up and down. His habit is still there. OMG! We'r going to suffer from dizziness for every wed morning lesson. Our project for tis lesson is combined with another module. We are going to propose a club in Pula Ubin. Guess we may need to get down there one day to explore just like what we did for marketing in year 1.2. Yeah, i think we will be having a great fun with this project as it seems quite interesting.


After the lesson ended around 11am, sheng loong, Purdee and I headed to Vivo City for lunch. Since we had 3h lunch break, we went to shop there after eating at Kopitiam. I finally bought the card for myself for future convenience. During this shopping trip, i bought a set of sports wear. I got a le coq sportif women shirt at 27 plus as there's a sales going on in a shop at habourfront centre. Then we also went to Gaint supermarket to get my FBT shorts. Haha, finally i have a set of presentable sports wear. The colours (blue)for both are quite matching. We also bought a Puma ladies shirt for Weina as her birthday is this coming fri. So glad that she like the colour that we chose for her.


Lesson resumes at 2pm. We were all so unwilling to attend that particular lesson as the tutor seems to be luring us into our dreamland. Jus can't stand it. Hopefully, i can concentrate during his lesson from next week onwards. What i can do lei? Maybe drink more water? Haha... But i don't think it will help.... Ohya, this tutor reminds me of Mrs Quek, one of my secondary sch geo teacher arh... hahahaha.....


After that lesson, we attended a make-up lecture for mgt accounting from 4 to 5 plus. I also have difficulty concentrating during that period. Haiz, my concentration span seems to have decrease after the vacation.


The last even of the day was going out with Sharon to eat dinner at my favourite porridge store in Chinatown. The one next to the CK shopping store. Although i ordered the wrong type of frog porridge, it's still very delicious! haha....

1st day of school at Sentosa Tourism Academy

I woke up very early this morning for school. To my surprise, i did not had a good sleep last night. Just i must be too excited about the new environment that i'll be at for the coming whole semester.


So far, i feel that the school has a very nice ambience that is too relaxing for us to study. I always have the urge to tour and play around Sentosa with the sun, sand and water. I think i'll be going to be very tired from the coming weeks onwards. I have reviewed all the projects that are required to be done during this semester. I can start to feel the stress. There are total 6 modules. 4 of them are coursework based. Although so many of them are coursework based with no main exam paper, this means that i'm going to be super duper busy with the on-going projects. I think there are about 6-7 individual and group projects. OMG! !@#$%^


I was really happy that Sarah is able to crash lecture on every mon for mangement accounting and tues morning lectures. Therefore, we can have lunch together in this semester finally. Last semester, we rarely have a chance to have lunch. Thanks to you, Sarah, for being my tour guide today. At least i do not feel so lost by now.


Some parts of the academy are really dark. I hope i will not need to walk alone there. Haha. Today, i was scared by the sound made by peacock. At first i thought it was monkeys that are making the sharp noises. I didn't know that there is a peacock next to the parking area. Hope that i can see the peacock opening its beautiful feathers one day...


Overall, i was quite happy. I thought i will need to wake up very early if my class starts at 9am. Now i can jus wake up around 6.50am and go out by 7.30am, i'll be safe. We had also formed a project group by our own today. A few of them are actually Sarah's friends. It's such a small world after all... Hope that we'll have a lot of fun during project time.


In about half an hour's time, i have to log into ole bb to choose my next semester's elective. This time round, Sarah, Wenyi & I finally choose the same elective. Our choices are as followed, Ticketing & Reservation then Gaming Operation and last but not least Business Calculus.


I used to struggle if i should choose Business Calsulus because i did not take A maths during Secondary School time. If my school were to offer Normal Acad classes A Maths, i'll definitely that the challange this time.

Year 2 Sem 2 starts officially

It has been a long time that i haven't update this blog. The same rountine for me during the vacation. I had devoted most of time in temp jobs during the long break after exam. Somehow feel a bit listless after a continous rountine of working life. I had to wake up early in the morning and travel for about an hour to the office.

The first job was receptionist at a film distributor called Buena Vista Tristar Columbia. I worked there from earlier Sept to 3rd week of Sept. Overall, it was quite an easy job. I loved the environment of that office at clarke quey. It was filled with movie ambience that makes me so excited just like i used to work at Video Ezy.

After this job, i went to work at Prudential as a temp data entry. I was somehow upset when i got to know that the company do not need so many temp workers during my 2nd day of work. We drew lots to determine who shall stay for another 2 more weeks before our school starts. Of course, my luck is not that good. I even bought a new train concession before i got to know this. I was considered lucky as one of the temp workers wanted to rest for the last few weeks of her holiday. Therefore, i took over her position. At prudential, i had lots of fun with the other temp workers as all of them are poly students. Most of them are from TP.

Probably it's because of same generation, that' s why e miggled around very well. They always keep talking make the room filled with laughter. I was somehow in bad mood but their laughter had make me feel so relaxing during work. Xinli is another girl who worked with me during our last 2 weeks of assignment at prudential. At first, i thought i will have difficulty in communication with her as she seems to be a very cold person when i first talked to her. As i started to work with her, i feel she is also a very ncie person cum a perfect lunch buddy. i started to miss the days and fun that we had during that 2 weeks.

After that assignment, i continued another job at suntec. This was recommended by our travel and tour operation tutor. The fair is Trade show for Asia Travel Market. I find this was really a good exposure for me. I have never been to such tourism trade show before. It was really a rare opportunity for HTM students to be involved in this ITB Asia 08. It was the first ITB Asia that was held in Singapore. My job scope was really relaxing as Veralyn and I were both handling the CNN booth. We just need to ensure that the Media library that was sponsored by CNN is neat and tidy. Most of our time, we were reading their travel related magazines.

During this vacation, i had also went to Malacca with my school. I went together with Sheng Loong and Veralyn. Actually the trip alone is quite boring as we visited many musuems. It was actually the accompany of my 2 dearest frens that make it happening! We had lots of fun during the 2 nights of stay at the hotel. We played games like bomberman on psp, poker cards, truth or dare etc... hahaha....

During this vacation, i feel that i have been through a lot. Many of the unhappy things that occurred between him n me. Probably i really mind the little things that he did and said. Sometimes, i feel that guys are always insensitive to little things which girls will mind. I do not dare to say love in any relationship anymore as it's a big word afterall. I guess during this stage of life, i can only say it's like.

Many people had told me that if i like/ love a person, i will be able to accept his bad points afterall. I do not get it initially until i had a talk with cousin Joey last night. She had enlightened me with her perspectives on relationship. I guess i still need time to accept his bahaviour which i don't really like since the start. This relationship has taught me not to devoted all my feelings in any relationship. I have to admit that i'm too vulerable to be hurt once more. I am the type of person who needs a little bit of obessive partner so that i know he do cares for me afterall. Although I always carve for freedom from my family ,i also need a partner that can give me all his attention.

Many things had run through my mind for the past few months. I have thought of giving up this relationship but i can't bear to do so. He had asked me before this question: There were so's many bad things about him, why do i still like him? I don't know how to answer him. It's just the feeling that counts. In fact, i am most upset by the one and only thing. Not gambling nor smoking.

When i asked him if he was happy being with me. His answer was ok only, no special feelings as he has too many things waiting for him to do everyday. This sentence is just like a knife stabbed into my heart until now. The reason why i do not want to leave him till now is because i hope he can feel that i will always be there for him.

Whenever i mentioned this sentence to anyone, i will start to become emo again. No matter what, i will not give up on him as long as i know i'm still in his heart. What if he had no feelings for me at all one day? I will tell myself to live on without him eventhough it''ll be tough during the initial stage. Fiona, pls be more couragous in this aspect! Jiayou...!~

The start of my End Sem Holiday...

Long long time that i didn't update my blog again....Should have keep a habit of blogging frequently but i still didn't manage to do so... Where shall i start from?

Em.... Let me start from Sarah's 18th birthday celebration. This celebration was held at Pasir Ris chalet during our study break. I was there even though the following Monday was our Accounting paper. We had lots of fun for that night... Drink raspberry vodka with soft drinks until we were so bloated. I was the last one to fall asleep in the morning. Loong and Sarah couldn't make it. Wenyi left the chalet in the early morning. Overall, i can see that Sarah has enjoyed herself. Glad to see her to had such a wonderful 18th birthday.

After that, we had 2 papers to deal with. One is Accounting and another one is Tour and Travel Operation. Let's see how i fair in about 2 weeks time. During my study break, i sent out many resumes to different jobs agency. Finally, i was being offered as receptionist by Kelly Service Centre to work at a film distributor (Beuna Vista Tristar Pte Ltd). So far, it was my fourth day at work till today. I enjoy working there as it seems like there isn't much restriction by the company. I can use the internet and phone most of the time when i have nothing to do on hand.

So far, realise that most of the important people are not around in the office most of the time. As for today, i think there will only be about 7 person present including myself out of 14 person. 2 of them on MC, 2 of them on leave and the 2 big bosses are out of town for business reason. Although office job can be bored at times, it is an easy way to earn money for part timers like me. My workplace is now full of Wall-E standies, posters. Just like my previous workplace at Video Ezy, so many movie stuffs.

Tomorrow, i will be setting off to Malacca with my school. It is an educational trip that allows us to tour in a 5 star hotel back staged operation there. So excited! I can go aboard again. The tour fees can be remburised from the edusave account. Therefore, i used the money that my dad first used to pay for the tour fees to buy myself a creative xi-fi mp3 player last week at the Comex fair. I do not wish to buy one but my i pod mini is spoilt long ago. Since then, i used my handphone to listen to that few patheic songs and FM.

Yesterday, Jerald had give me a big scared! He didn't reply my message the whole day. I didn't want to call him cause i was afraid that i may disturb his progress on the project that is due today. At first, i thought he did not bother to reply as that's what he do sometimes. So i started to get angry. I called him in the night time and found out that his phone didn't receive any msg until he restarted the phone on the spot. I learnt my lesson from now on. Do not message him unneccesarily, give him a call straight!~ Hope he will change his phone soon.....

Today, it is our 2nd month anniversary!!!! Time flies... I always have a feeling that we two have been together for a long long time already. Actually, if u ask me if i'm happy with what i have now.... I will reply yes and no partially. I'm definitely happy to be with him as i can confirm that my feeling for him is getting stronger each day. I told myself not to commit too much in the inital stage of a relationship but i could not do it everytime. I'm getting unhappy sometimes as my mood is affected by his mood too. I can feel that he is really stressed-up with many things. That's when i feel so guilty of being unable to lighten his burden. I always wonder, by going into a relationship, will it be a burden to him? I need his care and attention too. Will he be able to meet my expectation as an ideal boyfriend? A little concern expressed by you will brighten my day, do you know that?

You made me upset when i saw your friendster profile a few days back. I cried instantly when i realised how much you love and care for your ex. Till now, i hope i'm not a replacement of that gal. If not, i really do not know how to deny this cruel fact. U explained to me that is the past and did not log in for a long long time. I decided to let it go and look forward. I'm sure i will be able to open your heart to me one day. Let time prove everything to us...

The end of Year 2 Sem 1....

Yesterday, Friday, it was my last day of Yr 2 Semester 1 at Temasek Polytechnic. I was somehow wondering why time flies like nobody business. I didn't really take note of the small little details that happened in this semester. I didn't really interact with other classmates in my class execpt for the clique of people whom i always mix with. I really enjoy the time that we had for the past few months. Really feel great to know people like loong, veralyn and weina as my new friends. However, i definitely not forget my other friends whom i know them for a long long time.

These few days, i am always wondering why my family is giving a hard time on me. They will keep calling me to ask if i am reaching home or not... I felt really irritated everytime when they did this to me cause i will feel as if i'm a small little kid. Come on, i've grown up! I really some degree of freedom! Haiz. That's y i didn;t have the courage to reveal to them i'm attached currently. I'm wondering if i should i just blah out this matter if i really can't take it one day. Most probably after i got back my results and proved to them i can make it in studies even i have a boyfriend. Let's see....

I managed to meet jerald on thurs and today. At least twice just for this week. After today, we will have to work extremely hard on our own studies. He has a project duing on the coming friday and he yet have to start on it till today. I hope he can manage to complete his task not in the last minute. Jiayou, dear dear! =) As for me, i have to work hard for revision on the 2 subjects before i go for Sarah's 18th birthday celebration. Feel so excited cuz Sarah is finally turning 18 yrs old! Besides, i can now introduce Jerald to my friends officially. They have only saw our photos before. He always introduced me to his friends and family members but i haven't done so. I can't introduce him to my family for the time being, therefore, i can recognise this relationship by introducing my friends to him. Guess this is the only way to show that i really appreaciate him as a bf now.

Ever since i have been together with him, i feel so contented. For example, he had completed most of my wishes that i want to do with the one i love. Since the past, i hope i can go to the beach and have a romantic walk with my bf. This has came true during my birthday celebration at east coast park this year. Secondly, i watched the fireworks with him during the NDP this yr too with our hands holding on to each other, haha, so sweet... keke.... AND today, finally we managed to k songs after so many weeks of planning. We wanted to go k songs since last few weeks but every time we have something that obstructed our way such as falling sick... We sang duet songs today. Haha, those duet songs that i dedicated were high in pitch for the male part. That's y he suffered a lot today. I realy enjoyed the things we have done so far.... Guess he will never know all these things about how i thought. Let him discover these eventually lo...

We also bought couple tee shirts today. It was somehow identical and hopefully this time is a sucess. Y i say so? Cuz before we got together officially, we bought the elmo shirt together. However, he didn't wear that ever since we bought cuz the neck area is too big. He doesn't like the cutting. Actually the shirt which i bought just now was also not in gd conditon as there are some stains on the neck area. It's a white colour shirt but i still risk and bought it cuz it's the last piece. Hopefully, the stains can be removed easily....

Haiz, next week can only meet him during Sarah's birthday chalet... Hope he will be able to make it... =D

The last session of SSM lesson

OMG! Can't believe this day has come! It is our last day of nightmare from now on... No need to worry about not enough rest on sunday night because of this SSM lesson on every mon which causes my main monday blue for the whole semester. For this whole semester before i got to know him, i will be very relectant to go out and have fun on every sunday. However, i don't care so much now. Haha...

Although it's our last session for this service methodlogy class, i somehow feel super high and sad today. High because i can finally break free from the restriction of 'ah-ma' highstyle for every mon. I can finally go and have a peaceful hair cut this week. I can't believe that the service instructor who is all along the fiercest one, is so out-going after the de-brief today. Really have fun through out the semester regardless of the tough times that we all have gone through together.

Veralyn, my fren and i were stewards this lesson. We were so tired as the plates kept coming into the washing point like nobody business. We kept washing and cleaning the used plates with determination. As some point of time, i felt like giving up as i was really really tired. Now my shoulders and back are aching.... So glad that Veralyn gave me a short shoulder massage after the de brief.... haha!

We manage to hit and exceedthe sales target at 2000 OVER dollars! woosh!!! so happy that Veralyn and my hard work didn't go into the drain. We washed so many plates today and if we didnt hit the target, we will be damn pisseed! Yeah Yeah! Good job everyone!!!! Well done..... =)

On last sat, it was national day. He and myself decided to go n explore the southern ridge in the afternoon and then proceed to watch the firework at night. However, there was a change of plan and we joined his army friends for the day. At first, i was quite unhappy why he will always want to join his friends during our date. I was somehow quite unhappy with my tone during the call but i do not think that he knowwhat's in my mind. I decided to give in as i know he does not have much time for his friends since he is with me.

We went to eat Yuki yaki with his friends. I was so touched by an event. One of his friends proposed to his gf during the fireworks at marina area. We were not there during the proposal but i can feel the sweetness from the couple. The guy kneeled down in front of the gal and gave her the diamond ring that worths more than 2000 over dollars. I think i will be moved to tears if i were the female lead. hahahaha.... All his friends there are older than me. It seems like i'm the youngest among them. At some point of time, i will be the quietest as i do not know what to say in their conversation. All of them are talking about marriage stuff like where to get for their housing, ROM,wedding photo shooting etc... I was really envy with them as they are at the suitable age to get married.

i shall stop here for today. Got to revise my deadly geo test which is tml.... omg omg.... haiz. i seem to be unable to absorb a lot of facts for this subject.... sobx.....

Little mouse is falling sick....

Xiao lao shu is sicked.... Went to the Tampines Polyclinic this afternoon as i really can't stand the cough anymore. I had been waking up in the middle of the night for the past few days because of this. I hope i will recover soon so that i can go out happilly with him on the coming weekend. Actually i was somehow very happy that one of my guy friend accompanied me to see doctor just now or else i wiould be very bored and maybe will even faint there cuz of lonliness. haha... a bit exaggerating right.... He was there to keep me occupied so that i will not look like a patient. Why is he so nice lei... hahaha. of cuz he wants to repay me la. I lend him all my lectures notes for last friday, that's why he act as if he was my dad la. We look like father and daughter going to the clinic sia...

Although i really hope Jerald will be the one to accompany me when i need him, i know i can't be so unreasonable. He is busy at work and he is so far away from me in terms of location. I really hate this man. I had a very bad experience last year about this circumstance. Last year, i suffered from a pro-longed stomach discomfort. I had gone to more than 3 doctors and spent significant amount of money for this sickness. My ex is also a workaholic. He has no time to accompany me to the doctor.

Everytime, when i feel realy sad about this, he will never know about it. It was really fortunate of me to have others to support me such as my colleagues and family. They are really the ones who showed true concern but not my ex. Let's stop talking about him. Mentioning about him will make my mood down.

Btw, i will like to thank Joey, my cousin, that she helped me to re-design this blog. I really like the header picture man... Thanks, Joey! This blog now look more refreshing in terms of appearance... hahaha....

I can feel that the cough medicine will cause heavy drowsiness.... I set alarm at 6pm jus now and i couldn'treally wake myself up. Omg.... That is a killer. I'm afraid i will fall asleep before he reach home later. argh.... nope nope... must keep myself awake first ar.... go n revise my geo test later ba...

A month of sweet life

Yesterday, it was our first one month anniversay. I was really happy that we actually had made it to one month. For the past one month, it was really my happiest momemnt when i'm with him. He may not seems to be a perfect guy in other's eye but i know he is trying hard to be a wonderful bf of mine. He is willing to sacrifice his time for me and accompany me to do the things which i want to. In this relationship, i learnt to give and take. Our timing may not be as flexible as other couples, i am quite content with the life we have now. Chatting on the phone every night just before we go to sleep even though we may be out of topics at times.

I was somehoe touched that he is willing to give up his time in gym with his friends yesterday and went out with me for dinner. He said that gf is of cuz more important. He also respect me in terms of informing me that he will be going out for a meal with a gal tml be4 hand. Guess he must be afraid that i will be misunderstood if he choose not to tell me. I cherish this kind of mutual respect. In the past, if i know that my bf is going out with a gal, i will start to think a lot. I think as a person grows, one's thinking will change. Guess this is a good thing.

I gave him a little surprise after we part at the bus stop. I message him to look for a little card in the kino's plastic bag. I slotted inside the bag when he was going to the toilet earlier on. I can feel that he is very glad to receive such a card from me. I hope such element of surprise can bright up his life. I only hope that he will be happy. His happiness really meant a lot to me. I love to see the way he smile. It will really make my heart smiles....

This year, i had ate a total of 4 birthday cakes. Really feel so surprised to eat a birthday cake on the last day of July in school. My classmates had bought a big Black Forest cake from Hans to celebrate birthday for the July Babies. Thanks to all the people for celebrate with my birthday with me this year. I really had a memorable one....

School term is coming to an end soon. I just hope that my holiday can come faster so that i can spend more time doing things which i wanted to do long ago. Such as finishing the last book of Harry Potter which i borrowed from my friend last year's Dec, finish the fruit basket comics and watch as many series show as possible.

Yea, coming mon is my last session of Service Methodology Skills. It will be our project week, so we must put in more team effort in order to run the business more efficiently. I have made an appointment at Kimage saloon for next wed as there is a National Day Promotion for hair rebonding at $169 with hair cut and treatment. This is done by senior stylists. Therefore, i feel it's quite worth it to give a try.

Sometimes, i'm quite tired of the lack of freedom i'm facing now. My family is always asking me where and who i am going out with on every weekends. There was once i argued with them cuz my dad dun allow me to go out. I was really angry at them as i think that they shouldn't control me to this extent. I'm old enough to handle my personal lifestyle. I will not neglect my school work as i had tendered from work a few weeks ago. This is the sacrifice that i had made when i choose to be with him. I feel it is worth it as i finally found someone whom i really want to be with him. I don't care about the consequences that i have to face in future. Treasuring your love ones whenever possible....