on-going activites

Last wed, our Club, resort & spa tutor arranged our class to go Spa Bontanica resort at Sentosa for a field trip. It was really an eye-opening experience for us. We managed to tour around the spa garden and resort area. However, due to the bad weather, we were unable to tour the villas. That's really disappointing. The presidential suite costs only 1100+ dollars per night. It is really long in size that can accomodate many people. There's also a walk-in wardrobe which many ladies wish for. The wardrobe area can accommodate at least 10 people at one go. OMG... How i wish i have such a big wardrobe.

After the field trip, my group members and i headed back to Sentosa academy to have our lunch at the RITZ restaurant. I was anticipating for my duck confit. The headwaiter of the restaurant for mon told us that there'l be duck confit on wed but they've made a mistake! So disappointing.... Somemore, the appetitzer doesn't fit my preference. The salad served was too raw. Really hope they will be more accurate in providing information in future.

Then i had an finance & accounting test on last fri evening. Hope i've done not too bad for it. Results will be out on next tues. I also went to have dinner with Kenneth. His birthday fell on saturday, 22nd. So i had an earlt birthday celebration with him. We went to Blue Oasis restaurant at Century Sq. There were too many people indoor, therefore, we took the outdoor seats. I was satisfied as I finally have the chance to eat duck confit. Overall, i feel the service provided was very good. The waiters are very friendly and they took initiative to help me top-up my water.

On last saturday, i went out with Sharon, Chun Sing, Cui Yue and Chi Kueng. That was an early birthday celebration for Sharon. Initially. Cairong was supposed to join us too. But she has something on in the very last minute. We had a great day~ We went to dine at raffles city cafe cartel. I was so blur that i didnt know it was just located at the entrance of raffles city. I walked a big round at level one inside raffles city until i called chunsing to ask for direction. I had bought a small winnie the pooh cake at bangawan solo. Her feedback is not very nice. I shall never buy that kind of cake in future. So sorry, sharon.... Didn't buy a nice cake for you this year. I shall buy a quality cake for you next year then... =) After the meal, we went to watch Madargascar 2 at Suntec City. This was so last minute, haha! Then i even made a mistake in finding the actual seats cuz we had missed the first part of the movie. Feel so paiseh when there were people looking for their seats which we had occupied. After the movie, we went to chilled at Starbucks for a while before we headed home.

Sharon went to stayed at my house for the night. I specially bought Hoegarden beer for us to drink during the night time. We didn't manage to watch any movie except to browse random shows. I should have prepare more shows before hand. We went to sleep at around 4plus as Sharon started to feel sleepy le. That was the most funny part as we two squeezed in a single bed filled with pillows and huggies. Although feel a bit difficult in sleeping properly, i feel so warm-hearted that best friends can actually sleep together in my room. Very rare thing to happen.

This tues, i just handed up one online blog assignment. Feel so relaxed when i completed my assignment long before the deadline. There is also another one assignment dueing on coming tues. I had printed out on mon and binded the report yesterday. Since yesterday night until today morning, i was trying to concentrate on my revision for the coming online travel and transport test tml. However, i feel that i was really distracted by the online shows that i'm chasing now. haha.... Still manage to finish the revision...

Encouragement

I think it's a great news that i am healing at a faster pace as compared to the past. I still could remember that my first break-up took me more than three months to accept the reality. However, i think lessons learnt from the past have turned me into a person who is able to accept reality more easily. If i say i have already put down this relationship by now, it's still a lie. Even till now, i will take a quick look if he is online and what's his nick on it. Really kapo right. See already, make me feel even more uncomfortable.

Really want to thank one person specially, Joey. She sent me a jap song that is very encouraging to me. The lyrics are very meaningful. Tells me to be strong even i always lost the precious things in life. Really thanks, my dearest sis! I will work hard.... ^ ^

HIKARI - Light

English Translation

The light that makes a journey to find love
Continues to chase after the future captured in my heart
If you open the hesitating door
You can walk into a new tomorrow

Painful memories
Sink deeply in the depths of my heart
The pain of loneliness
That no one else knows

Why do I always
Lose the most precious things?
The neverending rain
Sings of sadness again

Ah, without anyone noticing
I wander aimlessly in this town
Hey, even though
The truth can't be seen
You should believe in the path within yourself, it's there

The light that makes a journey to find love
Continues to chase after the future captured in my heart
If you open the hesitating door
You can fly into a new tomorrow

A teardrop floats through the wind
The flowing clouds and the blue skies beyond my reaches
I look up, alone, and take a vow quietly
That I will live embracing the neverending dream

The light that connects the faraway wish
It will surely bring hope and courage
Instead of counting the time that has passed
Let's make most of our time now

If your wish isn't granted and you are hurt
You just need to start over again from there, again and again
That's right, there isn't just one answer
You'll find happiness one day

What's Your Power Color?

Your Power Color Is Indigo

At Your Highest: You are on a fast track to success - and others believe in you. At Your Lowest: You require a lot of attention and praise. In Love: You see people as how you want them to be, not as how they are. How You're Attractive: Your dramatic flair makes others see you as mysterious and romantic. Your Eternal Question: "Does This Work Into My Future Plans?"

What's" Your Power Color?

What the Beach Test Says About You

What the Beach Test Says About You

You tend to be a very social person. You live for your friends and family. You can get social burnout occasionally though. You aren't a total extrovert. You fall in love with ease and confidence. Even if you've had bad experiences in the past, each new love is a reason to start completely over. You are a passionate person. You are free wheeling, fun loving, and ruled by your emotions. Your sense of humor is intellectual and obscure. Only really well educated people get your jokes.

The Beach Test

Happened to see this test on Cousin Joey's blog. Appear to be quite true for me... =)

What Your Cute Monster Says About You

What Your Cute Monster Says About You

You are a simply happy person. You still view the world with a childlike innocence. You have an easy going attitude, and you value harmony. You love freely and inspire others to love. You inner demon is frailty. You are easily beaten down by life. People think you're cute because you are optimistic. Your outlook on life is charming.

The Cute Monster Test

HUMANMETRICS: Jung Typology Test

Your Type is ESFJ
Extraverted
Sensing
Feeling
Judging

Strength of the preferences %
11
25
88
22

Qualitative analysis of your type formula You are:
slightly expressed extravert
moderately expressed sensing personality
very expressed feeling personality
slightly expressed judging personality

Extraverted Sensing Feeling Judging by Joe Butt
Profile: ESFJRevision: 3.0Date of Revision: 23 Feb 2005

Guardians of birthdays, holidays and celebrations, ESFJs are generous entertainers. They enjoy and joyfully observe traditions and are liberal in giving, especially where custom prescribes.
All else being equal, ESFJs enjoy being in charge. They see problems clearly and delegate easily, work hard and play with zest. ESFJs, as do most SJs, bear strong allegiance to rights of seniority. They willingly provide service (which embodies life's meaning) and expect the same from others.
ESFJs are easily wounded. And when wounded, their emotions will not be contained. They by nature "wear their hearts on their sleeves," often exuding warmth and bonhomie, but not infrequently boiling over with the vexation of their souls. Some ESFJs channel these vibrant emotions into moving dramatic performances on stage and screen.
Strong, contradictory forces consume the ESFJ. Their sense of right and wrong wrestles with an overwhelming rescuing, 'mothering' drive. This sometimes results in swift, immediate action taken upon a transgressor, followed by stern reprimand; ultimately, however, the prodigal is wrested from the gallows of their folly, just as the noose tightens and all hope is lost, by the very executioner!
An ESFJ at odds with self is a remarkable sight. When a decision must be made, especially one involving the risk of conflict (abhorrent to ESFJs), there ensues an in-house wrestling match between the aforementioned black-and-white Values and the Nemesis of Discord. The contender pits self against self, once firmly deciding with the Right, then switching to Prudence to forestall hostilities, countered by unswerving Values, ad exhaustium, winner take all.
As caretakers, ESFJs sense danger all around--germs within, the elements without, unscrupulous malefactors, insidious character flaws. The world is a dangerous place, not to be trusted. Not that the ESFJ is paranoid; 'hyper-vigilant' would be more precise. And thus they serve excellently as protectors, outstanding in fields such as medical care and elementary education.

Source: http://typelogic.com/esfj.html

What Tarrot Card are You?

You are The Moon
Hope, expectation, Bright promises.

The Moon is a card of magic and mystery - when prominent you know that nothing is as it seems, particularly when it concerns relationships. All logic is thrown out the window.
The Moon is all about visions and illusions, madness, genius and poetry. This is a card that has to do with sleep, and so with both dreams and nightmares. It is a scary card in that it warns that there might be hidden enemies, tricks and falsehoods. But it should also be remembered that this is a card of great creativity, of powerful magic, primal feelings and intuition. You may be going through a time of emotional and mental trial; if you have any past mental problems, you must be vigilant in taking your medication but avoid drugs or alcohol, as abuse of either will cause them irreparable damage. This time however, can also result in great creativity, psychic powers, visions and insight. You can and should trust your intuition.

What Tarot Card are You?Take the Test to Find Out.

---Quite true ^^

Long weekend

It has been a week after the break up. I thought i will actually take things easy by now but i was wrong. I still suffer from the after effects of break up. My mind will still wonder about the past events.

On last fri, my group mates and i went to Pulau Ubin for site inspection. That was my first time going there. I didn't know that we have to cycle around the island that's why i brought my normal sch side shoulder bag. I had to trouble michelle to help me carry throughout the journey. Since young, i do not really learn to cycle. So i also troubled Sheng Loong to cycle with me in a twin bike. We felt so cheated by the bicycle shop which we went to. The gear of the twin bike was not working in its best condition. This lead us to stop the journey more than three times. One thing we all were scared was being attacked by scent flies. Once bitten by scent flies, the female ones will lay eggs on the bitten wound. It was hard to discover as the scent flies were small and white in colour which was also invisible. It was a little expensive to travel there as the cost of ferry for 2 way was 5 bucks. The island is really ulu with no proper medic facilities. At the later part of the journey, Purdee had fall down from the bike and hurt her knee... She also felt giddy after a while. Poor Purdee... Therefore, we decided to give up our trip to Chek Jawa and headed back to the starting point. After the whole event, i became tanned with uneven skin tone!

We went to Subway at Changi Village to have our lunch when the trip ended for the day. I then headed to Sentosa Academy to meet Wenyi for photo taking session of the campus. Our last destination was Esplanade for our field trip report. It was quite interesting even though we didn't really watch finish all the shows everytime. Finally, i had bought the havannas slippers. Silver colour was the only colour left for my foot' size. I bought it because i'm really desperate for a new pair of slippers that is comfortable and lasting.

After an eventful Friday, i stayed at home on Saturday to have adequate rest. I suffered from bodyache when i woke up yesterday. I was rushing the field trip report for fesival and event mangement assignment. Finally completed the report but i still need to decorate the blog. I was alternating between report and hk drama series. Getting more and more exciting although it's very long-winded.

Today, i went to the Singapore Teddy Bear Show at Arts House with Kenneth. We had some difficulty locating the place initially but due to woman's intuition, we found the place. Although the showroom is not very big, i was really amused by the different bears that the artists have made. Some bears cost up to 1400 dollars. The reason is the accessories are real which make the bear to be very elegant overall...

After that, we went to watch Quantance of solance. The theatre at Suntec Eng Wah was super cold. I should have wore long pants and shirt. The show was generally exciting but i was unable to relate back to the previous show; casino royale. Some parts were linked back to that yet i had no impression about casino royale.

I had done a very silly thing just now. I went to my house's nearby 7 Eleven to buy a can of Carlsberg as i was feeling emo again. I started to drink that beer while watching my hk series. After a few sips, i then know that this will not help to ease my unhappiness in my heart so i threw it away without finishing it.

Complicated

Why i still have the urge to see you again even i was hurted badly. I feel that i'm so weaked at times. I have tried so hard to forget the memories that we had for the past few months. Though i seems to be alright to most people these few days and i told them i'll be alright soon, i am still a weak minded person afterall... I seems to be just acting tough. I hope i'm not. I really wish that i can take things easy as i wanted all along.

I will still think of certain things even things are no longer important to u. If we were still together, this day is the 4th mth. I know it's pointless to mention this again... But.... Feel like crying again but i want myself to hold back my tears. Cant the pain just go away? I really have no more courage to face the reality of relationship between couples. I always told people around me that i do not wish to go into relationship by now but deep down in my heart i hop there will be a guy who is willing to take gd care of me. Just that i will nt dare to commit from now.

Very frequent, i told Joey that it seems like i'm suffering from karma. I maybe a playgirl in my previous life that is why i cant get a gd return in any relationships so far. Why a gd people who have no bad intention at all may not necessary get a gd return? Life is always so cruel and unfair....

The most painful process in life

Once again, i'm out of relationship again. I cried and cried when i knew there was no turning back. In this relationship, i took the courage to confront him. I guess this time i did something that is very couragous. It was really unexpected.


My heart feels as if it was stabbed by thousands of knives when i knew he had no more feelings for me long ago. I felt i'm so silly to keep on waiting as if he will treat me better one day. I was wrong. I initated a break-up immediately even though it's against my wish.


He tried to explain that we two couldn't work out because he finds it difficult to communicate. He finds it stressed up when i start to pin high hopes on him. He thinks that he is not the guy i wanted all along as he's so many things that i dun like. In fact i told him, if he were to give more concern for me, i will not even think of his negative side. But he didn't.


I felt really upset even i woke up this morning. I had quite a peaceful sleep last night. Thanks to my dearest friends and cousin. (Sharon, Loong n Cousin Joey) I managed to sleep well after chatting with them. At least i know i'm not alone at all. There are people who still cares about my well-being. When i was on my way to school this morning, i received msg from Joey n Veralyn. They really touched me to the bottom of my heart. Even Caryl n deborah send regards to me through Joey. I also want to thank Sarah, Kenneth, cousin Daniel n Winnie... N those who tried to cheer me up.


No worries... After the walk towards the small island from Palawan beach this afternoon with loong, i felt more relieved. It is a place that can calm me down naturally. I like that place a lot. Maybe that will be my cosy place where i can have reflection whenever needed. It helps to clear my messy thoughts within a short period of time.


I told someone that from today onwards, i will shred a tear for him. The original Fiona should revived from now on. I want to be my very ownself. No more hidding of emotions or feelings from ppl. I want to stay happy with a very optimistic attitude in life. I need the energy to go n deal with a pile of assignments n tests. I will not want to worry those who are around me. I just need a period of time to heal from this hurtful experience and a lot of disractions..... I need to keep myself occupied as i know it's not easy to let this go in such a short period of time.


Jiayou, 梁宛玲!!!!!!! Don't let urself down..... !