It has been a long time that i haven't update this blog. The same rountine for me during the vacation. I had devoted most of time in temp jobs during the long break after exam. Somehow feel a bit listless after a continous rountine of working life. I had to wake up early in the morning and travel for about an hour to the office.
The first job was receptionist at a film distributor called Buena Vista Tristar Columbia. I worked there from earlier Sept to 3rd week of Sept. Overall, it was quite an easy job. I loved the environment of that office at clarke quey. It was filled with movie ambience that makes me so excited just like i used to work at Video Ezy.
After this job, i went to work at Prudential as a temp data entry. I was somehow upset when i got to know that the company do not need so many temp workers during my 2nd day of work. We drew lots to determine who shall stay for another 2 more weeks before our school starts. Of course, my luck is not that good. I even bought a new train concession before i got to know this. I was considered lucky as one of the temp workers wanted to rest for the last few weeks of her holiday. Therefore, i took over her position. At prudential, i had lots of fun with the other temp workers as all of them are poly students. Most of them are from TP.
Probably it's because of same generation, that' s why e miggled around very well. They always keep talking make the room filled with laughter. I was somehow in bad mood but their laughter had make me feel so relaxing during work. Xinli is another girl who worked with me during our last 2 weeks of assignment at prudential. At first, i thought i will have difficulty in communication with her as she seems to be a very cold person when i first talked to her. As i started to work with her, i feel she is also a very ncie person cum a perfect lunch buddy. i started to miss the days and fun that we had during that 2 weeks.
After that assignment, i continued another job at suntec. This was recommended by our travel and tour operation tutor. The fair is Trade show for Asia Travel Market. I find this was really a good exposure for me. I have never been to such tourism trade show before. It was really a rare opportunity for HTM students to be involved in this ITB Asia 08. It was the first ITB Asia that was held in Singapore. My job scope was really relaxing as Veralyn and I were both handling the CNN booth. We just need to ensure that the Media library that was sponsored by CNN is neat and tidy. Most of our time, we were reading their travel related magazines.
During this vacation, i had also went to Malacca with my school. I went together with Sheng Loong and Veralyn. Actually the trip alone is quite boring as we visited many musuems. It was actually the accompany of my 2 dearest frens that make it happening! We had lots of fun during the 2 nights of stay at the hotel. We played games like bomberman on psp, poker cards, truth or dare etc... hahaha....
During this vacation, i feel that i have been through a lot. Many of the unhappy things that occurred between him n me. Probably i really mind the little things that he did and said. Sometimes, i feel that guys are always insensitive to little things which girls will mind. I do not dare to say love in any relationship anymore as it's a big word afterall. I guess during this stage of life, i can only say it's like.
Many people had told me that if i like/ love a person, i will be able to accept his bad points afterall. I do not get it initially until i had a talk with cousin Joey last night. She had enlightened me with her perspectives on relationship. I guess i still need time to accept his bahaviour which i don't really like since the start. This relationship has taught me not to devoted all my feelings in any relationship. I have to admit that i'm too vulerable to be hurt once more. I am the type of person who needs a little bit of obessive partner so that i know he do cares for me afterall. Although I always carve for freedom from my family ,i also need a partner that can give me all his attention.
Many things had run through my mind for the past few months. I have thought of giving up this relationship but i can't bear to do so. He had asked me before this question: There were so's many bad things about him, why do i still like him? I don't know how to answer him. It's just the feeling that counts. In fact, i am most upset by the one and only thing. Not gambling nor smoking.
When i asked him if he was happy being with me. His answer was ok only, no special feelings as he has too many things waiting for him to do everyday. This sentence is just like a knife stabbed into my heart until now. The reason why i do not want to leave him till now is because i hope he can feel that i will always be there for him.
Whenever i mentioned this sentence to anyone, i will start to become emo again. No matter what, i will not give up on him as long as i know i'm still in his heart. What if he had no feelings for me at all one day? I will tell myself to live on without him eventhough it''ll be tough during the initial stage. Fiona, pls be more couragous in this aspect! Jiayou...!~
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