The last session of SSM lesson

OMG! Can't believe this day has come! It is our last day of nightmare from now on... No need to worry about not enough rest on sunday night because of this SSM lesson on every mon which causes my main monday blue for the whole semester. For this whole semester before i got to know him, i will be very relectant to go out and have fun on every sunday. However, i don't care so much now. Haha...

Although it's our last session for this service methodlogy class, i somehow feel super high and sad today. High because i can finally break free from the restriction of 'ah-ma' highstyle for every mon. I can finally go and have a peaceful hair cut this week. I can't believe that the service instructor who is all along the fiercest one, is so out-going after the de-brief today. Really have fun through out the semester regardless of the tough times that we all have gone through together.

Veralyn, my fren and i were stewards this lesson. We were so tired as the plates kept coming into the washing point like nobody business. We kept washing and cleaning the used plates with determination. As some point of time, i felt like giving up as i was really really tired. Now my shoulders and back are aching.... So glad that Veralyn gave me a short shoulder massage after the de brief.... haha!

We manage to hit and exceedthe sales target at 2000 OVER dollars! woosh!!! so happy that Veralyn and my hard work didn't go into the drain. We washed so many plates today and if we didnt hit the target, we will be damn pisseed! Yeah Yeah! Good job everyone!!!! Well done..... =)

On last sat, it was national day. He and myself decided to go n explore the southern ridge in the afternoon and then proceed to watch the firework at night. However, there was a change of plan and we joined his army friends for the day. At first, i was quite unhappy why he will always want to join his friends during our date. I was somehow quite unhappy with my tone during the call but i do not think that he knowwhat's in my mind. I decided to give in as i know he does not have much time for his friends since he is with me.

We went to eat Yuki yaki with his friends. I was so touched by an event. One of his friends proposed to his gf during the fireworks at marina area. We were not there during the proposal but i can feel the sweetness from the couple. The guy kneeled down in front of the gal and gave her the diamond ring that worths more than 2000 over dollars. I think i will be moved to tears if i were the female lead. hahahaha.... All his friends there are older than me. It seems like i'm the youngest among them. At some point of time, i will be the quietest as i do not know what to say in their conversation. All of them are talking about marriage stuff like where to get for their housing, ROM,wedding photo shooting etc... I was really envy with them as they are at the suitable age to get married.

i shall stop here for today. Got to revise my deadly geo test which is tml.... omg omg.... haiz. i seem to be unable to absorb a lot of facts for this subject.... sobx.....

Little mouse is falling sick....

Xiao lao shu is sicked.... Went to the Tampines Polyclinic this afternoon as i really can't stand the cough anymore. I had been waking up in the middle of the night for the past few days because of this. I hope i will recover soon so that i can go out happilly with him on the coming weekend. Actually i was somehow very happy that one of my guy friend accompanied me to see doctor just now or else i wiould be very bored and maybe will even faint there cuz of lonliness. haha... a bit exaggerating right.... He was there to keep me occupied so that i will not look like a patient. Why is he so nice lei... hahaha. of cuz he wants to repay me la. I lend him all my lectures notes for last friday, that's why he act as if he was my dad la. We look like father and daughter going to the clinic sia...

Although i really hope Jerald will be the one to accompany me when i need him, i know i can't be so unreasonable. He is busy at work and he is so far away from me in terms of location. I really hate this man. I had a very bad experience last year about this circumstance. Last year, i suffered from a pro-longed stomach discomfort. I had gone to more than 3 doctors and spent significant amount of money for this sickness. My ex is also a workaholic. He has no time to accompany me to the doctor.

Everytime, when i feel realy sad about this, he will never know about it. It was really fortunate of me to have others to support me such as my colleagues and family. They are really the ones who showed true concern but not my ex. Let's stop talking about him. Mentioning about him will make my mood down.

Btw, i will like to thank Joey, my cousin, that she helped me to re-design this blog. I really like the header picture man... Thanks, Joey! This blog now look more refreshing in terms of appearance... hahaha....

I can feel that the cough medicine will cause heavy drowsiness.... I set alarm at 6pm jus now and i couldn'treally wake myself up. Omg.... That is a killer. I'm afraid i will fall asleep before he reach home later. argh.... nope nope... must keep myself awake first ar.... go n revise my geo test later ba...

A month of sweet life

Yesterday, it was our first one month anniversay. I was really happy that we actually had made it to one month. For the past one month, it was really my happiest momemnt when i'm with him. He may not seems to be a perfect guy in other's eye but i know he is trying hard to be a wonderful bf of mine. He is willing to sacrifice his time for me and accompany me to do the things which i want to. In this relationship, i learnt to give and take. Our timing may not be as flexible as other couples, i am quite content with the life we have now. Chatting on the phone every night just before we go to sleep even though we may be out of topics at times.

I was somehoe touched that he is willing to give up his time in gym with his friends yesterday and went out with me for dinner. He said that gf is of cuz more important. He also respect me in terms of informing me that he will be going out for a meal with a gal tml be4 hand. Guess he must be afraid that i will be misunderstood if he choose not to tell me. I cherish this kind of mutual respect. In the past, if i know that my bf is going out with a gal, i will start to think a lot. I think as a person grows, one's thinking will change. Guess this is a good thing.

I gave him a little surprise after we part at the bus stop. I message him to look for a little card in the kino's plastic bag. I slotted inside the bag when he was going to the toilet earlier on. I can feel that he is very glad to receive such a card from me. I hope such element of surprise can bright up his life. I only hope that he will be happy. His happiness really meant a lot to me. I love to see the way he smile. It will really make my heart smiles....

This year, i had ate a total of 4 birthday cakes. Really feel so surprised to eat a birthday cake on the last day of July in school. My classmates had bought a big Black Forest cake from Hans to celebrate birthday for the July Babies. Thanks to all the people for celebrate with my birthday with me this year. I really had a memorable one....

School term is coming to an end soon. I just hope that my holiday can come faster so that i can spend more time doing things which i wanted to do long ago. Such as finishing the last book of Harry Potter which i borrowed from my friend last year's Dec, finish the fruit basket comics and watch as many series show as possible.

Yea, coming mon is my last session of Service Methodology Skills. It will be our project week, so we must put in more team effort in order to run the business more efficiently. I have made an appointment at Kimage saloon for next wed as there is a National Day Promotion for hair rebonding at $169 with hair cut and treatment. This is done by senior stylists. Therefore, i feel it's quite worth it to give a try.

Sometimes, i'm quite tired of the lack of freedom i'm facing now. My family is always asking me where and who i am going out with on every weekends. There was once i argued with them cuz my dad dun allow me to go out. I was really angry at them as i think that they shouldn't control me to this extent. I'm old enough to handle my personal lifestyle. I will not neglect my school work as i had tendered from work a few weeks ago. This is the sacrifice that i had made when i choose to be with him. I feel it is worth it as i finally found someone whom i really want to be with him. I don't care about the consequences that i have to face in future. Treasuring your love ones whenever possible....

the day arrived

I was waiting for this day to come from the since last weekend. It was really a pain for me to wait for this day come. I finally can get to see him! He will be out from reservist until mon. At first, i was quite upset that he might not be able to come out n celebrate my birthday with me. Actually, i dun mind about the birthday celebration. Wat i mind is that i really wish to see him after we parted at Tampines on last sat night. I have to admit that i started to commit myself seriously in this. This is proven by how much i miss him for the past few days. I feel very comfortable when i am with him. He seems to be a very nice guy even though i thought he may not be very good at making gals happy. I was wrong. He proved tome that he cares about me and shows concern for me. This weekend seems to be a busy one. Later, i will be going to Bugis and meet him as we are going for the watch hunting which i wanted. It's a casio lover's watch which seems quite difficult to search for. I was quite surprised that he wanted to buy that even though his style of waering watch is very different from the casio ones. Haha... After that, we will be going to East Coast Park to meet my colleagues and cousin Joey. Yea yea, this is my second birthday celebration for the year. I jus had a dinner with my dear fren, Sharon, yesterday evening. She visited me at my workplace. She really surprise me with the birthday cake and the gift. I thought she will just treat me a meal at Cafe Cartel. Really happy that she is so nice. Without her effort of making me happy yesterday, i think i'll die from exhaustion. The time when i started working until night time, i had been doing the same thing. After a few colleagues had left the company, there are some obvious changes in it. We have to do a lot of stuff. I can feel my back is going to break when my work ended yesterday. Something funny happened when i was on my way back yesterday. As soon as my work ended, i called him. Chatted happily on the phone. I couldn't find y ez link card when i was boarding my second bus home. I panic n decided to pay by cash on the spot. OMG! I onli have about 30cents coins with me at that time of time. I asked the bus uncle if he has any change for coins. He asked me to go inside and ask the otehrs. HAiz... i only have a 10 dollar note. To my surprise, the lasy whom i asked if she has any coins to change, she just give it to me. She doesn't have small change for notes. I was so touched and embarrassed at the same time. When i reached hm, i turned my bag upside down. After a while, i touched my jacket's pocket. It was inside there! HAiz, i feel that i was really careless. Now, he even can confirm i am like a sotong. Feel so paiseh now as this was not my first time being so sotong already.

a decison made finally

omg!!! i can't imagine that he had made the first move. I was like a mad woman on fri after i received his confession through msg. he is so sweet man. when i was having my service meeting, i received the msg. he said, i know what to give for for ur birthday le. it's priceless. First thing come to my mind is to give me himself as a gift lor. OMG! it's really true. He asked if i will accept him as a priceless birthday gift. I was very shocked at that moment. Then i proposely asked him why should i accept him as gift lei. He said, cuz i wan to be with u! At that moment, i knew i had won the game. Cuz i have been waiting n guessing who will be the first to confess. I replied, certainly with a bashful emotional at the back. After that we somehow digress the topic. So i dun know if we are considered as being together officially. Somemore, he didn;t call me that night. I was so confused n frustrating be4 i slept. Jus be4i went to slp, i msg him when can i get my birthday gift. He replied, i'm available. I dun get what he meant. That's y i went to slp with wild thoughts in my mind.

I went to work the next morning. I decided to msg him what he meant for his previous msg. He said he is available any time. N he asked mi if i am free on that day. Before i went to work, i told myself that i should wear nicer as i hope that he wil ask me out later. Just as i wished! We met at Tampines Interchange and set off to IKEA. Along the way to the bus shuttle area, he suddenly held my hands. I was so shocked as i hav no mental preparation that we are actually together already.

Overall, i really enjoyed our first date as being officially together. I didn't expect him to send me hm cuz he live in wet while i'm living in east. However, i didn't know why i can't control the feelings of feeling upset when i was boarding the bus hm. Maybe i thought of things like i can only see him at most once a week. haiz. At least he will msg me if i had reach hm n what i'm doing ar... I have never feel so sweet for a long time! We chatted for about 3hours before we hang up the call. During the chat, i told him about what happen be4 i accepted him. He was somehow worried n jealous that i will be too close with that online guy for the next few weeks as he is going for re servist tml le. He sounded so inconfident. He said he need a love insurance lor... lol. i assured to him that i will nt go out with him once i had made a decision. feel so happy that at i know he cares about me.

He told me yesterday that he may be able to come out on sat to celebrate my birthday with me. I was somehow excited but at the same time i shall nt pin too much high hope on this. I hope we can meet up on coming sat! i may not be like my frens whom their partners are in the same sch or working. theirs are much more fortunate than me. Not so many problems like distance, insufficient time to spend together. I hav no sense of security for the time being as we jus started. But i have a strong urge that i wanna to be with him as long as possible. will it be possible in reality? More to come i guess... =)

A mixture of feeling for the day

Jus came back from work nt long ago. My parents hav been complaining that i hav spent so much time outside nowadys... Haha. No choice ar... I was so happy to know that my ex-senior was visiting us jus now! It has been quite some time that i didn't get to see her since she left the workplace. She has been a very nice, responsible and caring senior. Therefore, i was super high when i received her call! We went to have supper at HK cafe near my working place. That's y i reach home so late.

Y there's a mixture of feeling for the day lei? It's because when i knew that my senior has manage to find a very pleasant job that has a gd job prospect. I'm really happy for her. She can get to learn more. However, i was getting quite disappointed to see so many seniors of my company to leave one by one. It was the fourth one this time. All these ppl are those whom i've been quite close with them since i started work. Too many company politics going that affect all of us. Cut cost etc... Haiz... Now, the branch which i'm working at, left only 2 active part Timers that includes me. In the past, if this situation was to occur, i will hav to work manybe more than 5 days per wk. However, now i only get to work about 9h/ wk in average. How am i suppose to survive on these pathetic number of hours from now on?!!! Working there is no longer as fun as like we had in the past! Today was my last day working with my 1 n onli part timer. Next time, we will nt be able to work together unless some exceptional thing happen. Feel really sad....

Today, i think a lot about this issue. I try to convince myself that i should stay there as long as i can. I do nt wish to get into a new environment again. I do not have much time for studies if i were to immerse too much in work. So studies is still the most important target for me right now. Tml onwards, my group mates n i will hav to go project on full force as 2 prjects are dueing on next week.

After a heavy supper, i feel quite uncomfortable. Guess serves me right la. Just recovered from fd poisoning, still eat so unhealthy fd. Haiz. Think my diahorrea is coming back. OMG! i can feel the werid feeling is back.

Guess i should rest earli, or else my dad is coming in to nag at me again. LOL. Gd night!

a new post for update

Really apologise for the long abandance of this blog. I couldn't be bothered to update so many things that happened to me for the past few months. Where shall i start lei?

Okie, since sch term starts for year 2, i have known a few 'ga gi'- gd frens whom i always hang out with them during break time or after school. I very fortunate to have such great friends around me. I feel very comfortable sharing my personal life matters with them. They are always there to give me advice on what i should do especially relationship problems. I will also nt forget my old frens ok... =)

I feel that i have a very 'wang' love destiny in this yr.

Before 17th May 2008, one of my sec sch fren, yuki, suddenly popped up in msn n ask me if i'm single etc. I felt quite weird n to be my surprised, she introduced one of her bf's fren to me. When i got to know that he's 26 this yr, i started to reject him mentally. This is because i prefer guys that will not have a huge age gap from me. However, i dun mind to know one more guy in my social circle. Initally, the guy and i were quite embarrassed during the first few days of our chat. As we get along, we seem to know each other quite well...

On 17th May, which was my mum's birthday. So my family and i cut the cake in the late noon as i need to rush to my another fren's belated birthday celebration at Zouk. I was somehow surprised that chemistry had appeared bwt me and another guy. This guy is actully my fren's fren. I was somehow drunk at zouk. He was there to take gd care of me when my cousin joey was having fun at interval. I feel very touched by what he had done. I know tat we both have interest on each other. He aksed me out after 2 days which we had met. I went out with him to watch the jap movie, accuracy of death. As time passed, i had went out 3 times with him. And i realised that he'll called mi on every fri night to hav a chat. Initially, i was quite upset as he admit he's nt the type that he will always msg the one whom he likes. But nowadays, we did chat over sms regularly.

The guy whom i chatted online is quite pity as i always reject my fren n his invitation for thier outings and i went out with the guy whom i kwe from zouk. Finally, last saturday, i went out with my fren n the online guy to watched the movie, wanted, and had dinner besides the esplanade. I feel that the online guy is also quite sweet, jus like the guy who i knew in zouk.

Sometimes, i feel that it's a torture for a person to 2 time at once. Dun know y some ppl still can manage a relationshp bwt 2 people. Haiz...I jus kanna food poisoning yesterday during my pract in SSM lesson. Puke n puke, diahorrea. NO choice, i skipped my ssm lectures n asked my dad to come n fetch me. My dad insisted me to hav a jab. After the jab, i was up with fever. That feeling really sucks... I was in a state blurness since yesterday evening to this late afternoon. I felt so touched that my grandma n mum take gd care of me when i was being tortured by illness. At that moment, i really hope the guy from zouk will be the one to concern more about me. I know i was being self-fish. The online guy is very concerned about me n he thought something bad had happened to me when i didn;t reply his msgs since yesterday.

I was on MC today... Feel so bad as i didn't go for a list of lessons for tues. Every tues, my lesson starts from 9am to 7pm. Haiz, missed the psycho lect for this week. Hope there's someone can lend me the notes tml.

On my birthday, the guy whom i met in zouk will nt be able to accompany me. He has to go for re-servicst. The bad habit of his is that he will always be late for meeting and ask a person out in the very last minute. I admire him a lot as he seems to be a superman to me. He has to work, study at SIM for one more semester and go for re-servist. I can't imagine how can he manage his life if he was to hav a gf now.... Maybe he need a god to save him from his busy and hectic life. =D

The online guy has also touched my heart as he helped me when my psycho video roject screwed up. He helped me to convert the raw video into a compatible format which window movie maker can read. Without his help, my fren will nt be able to finish editing the video asap. However, my psycho project was screwed as we were unable to played the video. After another round of editing by my fren, we hand up the video on the next day. So lucky that my tutor was lenient enough as she said she'll deduct marks if we hand up later than fri.

So....i also dun know how to choose bwt the 2 of them. My colleague once advised me that choose the one whom u misses a lot n make u happiest. I alo dun know the anwer to these.... Sobz. Maybe let me know more about them be4 i result into a state of delimma.