1st day of school at Sentosa Tourism Academy

I woke up very early this morning for school. To my surprise, i did not had a good sleep last night. Just i must be too excited about the new environment that i'll be at for the coming whole semester.


So far, i feel that the school has a very nice ambience that is too relaxing for us to study. I always have the urge to tour and play around Sentosa with the sun, sand and water. I think i'll be going to be very tired from the coming weeks onwards. I have reviewed all the projects that are required to be done during this semester. I can start to feel the stress. There are total 6 modules. 4 of them are coursework based. Although so many of them are coursework based with no main exam paper, this means that i'm going to be super duper busy with the on-going projects. I think there are about 6-7 individual and group projects. OMG! !@#$%^


I was really happy that Sarah is able to crash lecture on every mon for mangement accounting and tues morning lectures. Therefore, we can have lunch together in this semester finally. Last semester, we rarely have a chance to have lunch. Thanks to you, Sarah, for being my tour guide today. At least i do not feel so lost by now.


Some parts of the academy are really dark. I hope i will not need to walk alone there. Haha. Today, i was scared by the sound made by peacock. At first i thought it was monkeys that are making the sharp noises. I didn't know that there is a peacock next to the parking area. Hope that i can see the peacock opening its beautiful feathers one day...


Overall, i was quite happy. I thought i will need to wake up very early if my class starts at 9am. Now i can jus wake up around 6.50am and go out by 7.30am, i'll be safe. We had also formed a project group by our own today. A few of them are actually Sarah's friends. It's such a small world after all... Hope that we'll have a lot of fun during project time.


In about half an hour's time, i have to log into ole bb to choose my next semester's elective. This time round, Sarah, Wenyi & I finally choose the same elective. Our choices are as followed, Ticketing & Reservation then Gaming Operation and last but not least Business Calculus.


I used to struggle if i should choose Business Calsulus because i did not take A maths during Secondary School time. If my school were to offer Normal Acad classes A Maths, i'll definitely that the challange this time.

Year 2 Sem 2 starts officially

It has been a long time that i haven't update this blog. The same rountine for me during the vacation. I had devoted most of time in temp jobs during the long break after exam. Somehow feel a bit listless after a continous rountine of working life. I had to wake up early in the morning and travel for about an hour to the office.

The first job was receptionist at a film distributor called Buena Vista Tristar Columbia. I worked there from earlier Sept to 3rd week of Sept. Overall, it was quite an easy job. I loved the environment of that office at clarke quey. It was filled with movie ambience that makes me so excited just like i used to work at Video Ezy.

After this job, i went to work at Prudential as a temp data entry. I was somehow upset when i got to know that the company do not need so many temp workers during my 2nd day of work. We drew lots to determine who shall stay for another 2 more weeks before our school starts. Of course, my luck is not that good. I even bought a new train concession before i got to know this. I was considered lucky as one of the temp workers wanted to rest for the last few weeks of her holiday. Therefore, i took over her position. At prudential, i had lots of fun with the other temp workers as all of them are poly students. Most of them are from TP.

Probably it's because of same generation, that' s why e miggled around very well. They always keep talking make the room filled with laughter. I was somehow in bad mood but their laughter had make me feel so relaxing during work. Xinli is another girl who worked with me during our last 2 weeks of assignment at prudential. At first, i thought i will have difficulty in communication with her as she seems to be a very cold person when i first talked to her. As i started to work with her, i feel she is also a very ncie person cum a perfect lunch buddy. i started to miss the days and fun that we had during that 2 weeks.

After that assignment, i continued another job at suntec. This was recommended by our travel and tour operation tutor. The fair is Trade show for Asia Travel Market. I find this was really a good exposure for me. I have never been to such tourism trade show before. It was really a rare opportunity for HTM students to be involved in this ITB Asia 08. It was the first ITB Asia that was held in Singapore. My job scope was really relaxing as Veralyn and I were both handling the CNN booth. We just need to ensure that the Media library that was sponsored by CNN is neat and tidy. Most of our time, we were reading their travel related magazines.

During this vacation, i had also went to Malacca with my school. I went together with Sheng Loong and Veralyn. Actually the trip alone is quite boring as we visited many musuems. It was actually the accompany of my 2 dearest frens that make it happening! We had lots of fun during the 2 nights of stay at the hotel. We played games like bomberman on psp, poker cards, truth or dare etc... hahaha....

During this vacation, i feel that i have been through a lot. Many of the unhappy things that occurred between him n me. Probably i really mind the little things that he did and said. Sometimes, i feel that guys are always insensitive to little things which girls will mind. I do not dare to say love in any relationship anymore as it's a big word afterall. I guess during this stage of life, i can only say it's like.

Many people had told me that if i like/ love a person, i will be able to accept his bad points afterall. I do not get it initially until i had a talk with cousin Joey last night. She had enlightened me with her perspectives on relationship. I guess i still need time to accept his bahaviour which i don't really like since the start. This relationship has taught me not to devoted all my feelings in any relationship. I have to admit that i'm too vulerable to be hurt once more. I am the type of person who needs a little bit of obessive partner so that i know he do cares for me afterall. Although I always carve for freedom from my family ,i also need a partner that can give me all his attention.

Many things had run through my mind for the past few months. I have thought of giving up this relationship but i can't bear to do so. He had asked me before this question: There were so's many bad things about him, why do i still like him? I don't know how to answer him. It's just the feeling that counts. In fact, i am most upset by the one and only thing. Not gambling nor smoking.

When i asked him if he was happy being with me. His answer was ok only, no special feelings as he has too many things waiting for him to do everyday. This sentence is just like a knife stabbed into my heart until now. The reason why i do not want to leave him till now is because i hope he can feel that i will always be there for him.

Whenever i mentioned this sentence to anyone, i will start to become emo again. No matter what, i will not give up on him as long as i know i'm still in his heart. What if he had no feelings for me at all one day? I will tell myself to live on without him eventhough it''ll be tough during the initial stage. Fiona, pls be more couragous in this aspect! Jiayou...!~

The start of my End Sem Holiday...

Long long time that i didn't update my blog again....Should have keep a habit of blogging frequently but i still didn't manage to do so... Where shall i start from?

Em.... Let me start from Sarah's 18th birthday celebration. This celebration was held at Pasir Ris chalet during our study break. I was there even though the following Monday was our Accounting paper. We had lots of fun for that night... Drink raspberry vodka with soft drinks until we were so bloated. I was the last one to fall asleep in the morning. Loong and Sarah couldn't make it. Wenyi left the chalet in the early morning. Overall, i can see that Sarah has enjoyed herself. Glad to see her to had such a wonderful 18th birthday.

After that, we had 2 papers to deal with. One is Accounting and another one is Tour and Travel Operation. Let's see how i fair in about 2 weeks time. During my study break, i sent out many resumes to different jobs agency. Finally, i was being offered as receptionist by Kelly Service Centre to work at a film distributor (Beuna Vista Tristar Pte Ltd). So far, it was my fourth day at work till today. I enjoy working there as it seems like there isn't much restriction by the company. I can use the internet and phone most of the time when i have nothing to do on hand.

So far, realise that most of the important people are not around in the office most of the time. As for today, i think there will only be about 7 person present including myself out of 14 person. 2 of them on MC, 2 of them on leave and the 2 big bosses are out of town for business reason. Although office job can be bored at times, it is an easy way to earn money for part timers like me. My workplace is now full of Wall-E standies, posters. Just like my previous workplace at Video Ezy, so many movie stuffs.

Tomorrow, i will be setting off to Malacca with my school. It is an educational trip that allows us to tour in a 5 star hotel back staged operation there. So excited! I can go aboard again. The tour fees can be remburised from the edusave account. Therefore, i used the money that my dad first used to pay for the tour fees to buy myself a creative xi-fi mp3 player last week at the Comex fair. I do not wish to buy one but my i pod mini is spoilt long ago. Since then, i used my handphone to listen to that few patheic songs and FM.

Yesterday, Jerald had give me a big scared! He didn't reply my message the whole day. I didn't want to call him cause i was afraid that i may disturb his progress on the project that is due today. At first, i thought he did not bother to reply as that's what he do sometimes. So i started to get angry. I called him in the night time and found out that his phone didn't receive any msg until he restarted the phone on the spot. I learnt my lesson from now on. Do not message him unneccesarily, give him a call straight!~ Hope he will change his phone soon.....

Today, it is our 2nd month anniversary!!!! Time flies... I always have a feeling that we two have been together for a long long time already. Actually, if u ask me if i'm happy with what i have now.... I will reply yes and no partially. I'm definitely happy to be with him as i can confirm that my feeling for him is getting stronger each day. I told myself not to commit too much in the inital stage of a relationship but i could not do it everytime. I'm getting unhappy sometimes as my mood is affected by his mood too. I can feel that he is really stressed-up with many things. That's when i feel so guilty of being unable to lighten his burden. I always wonder, by going into a relationship, will it be a burden to him? I need his care and attention too. Will he be able to meet my expectation as an ideal boyfriend? A little concern expressed by you will brighten my day, do you know that?

You made me upset when i saw your friendster profile a few days back. I cried instantly when i realised how much you love and care for your ex. Till now, i hope i'm not a replacement of that gal. If not, i really do not know how to deny this cruel fact. U explained to me that is the past and did not log in for a long long time. I decided to let it go and look forward. I'm sure i will be able to open your heart to me one day. Let time prove everything to us...

The end of Year 2 Sem 1....

Yesterday, Friday, it was my last day of Yr 2 Semester 1 at Temasek Polytechnic. I was somehow wondering why time flies like nobody business. I didn't really take note of the small little details that happened in this semester. I didn't really interact with other classmates in my class execpt for the clique of people whom i always mix with. I really enjoy the time that we had for the past few months. Really feel great to know people like loong, veralyn and weina as my new friends. However, i definitely not forget my other friends whom i know them for a long long time.

These few days, i am always wondering why my family is giving a hard time on me. They will keep calling me to ask if i am reaching home or not... I felt really irritated everytime when they did this to me cause i will feel as if i'm a small little kid. Come on, i've grown up! I really some degree of freedom! Haiz. That's y i didn;t have the courage to reveal to them i'm attached currently. I'm wondering if i should i just blah out this matter if i really can't take it one day. Most probably after i got back my results and proved to them i can make it in studies even i have a boyfriend. Let's see....

I managed to meet jerald on thurs and today. At least twice just for this week. After today, we will have to work extremely hard on our own studies. He has a project duing on the coming friday and he yet have to start on it till today. I hope he can manage to complete his task not in the last minute. Jiayou, dear dear! =) As for me, i have to work hard for revision on the 2 subjects before i go for Sarah's 18th birthday celebration. Feel so excited cuz Sarah is finally turning 18 yrs old! Besides, i can now introduce Jerald to my friends officially. They have only saw our photos before. He always introduced me to his friends and family members but i haven't done so. I can't introduce him to my family for the time being, therefore, i can recognise this relationship by introducing my friends to him. Guess this is the only way to show that i really appreaciate him as a bf now.

Ever since i have been together with him, i feel so contented. For example, he had completed most of my wishes that i want to do with the one i love. Since the past, i hope i can go to the beach and have a romantic walk with my bf. This has came true during my birthday celebration at east coast park this year. Secondly, i watched the fireworks with him during the NDP this yr too with our hands holding on to each other, haha, so sweet... keke.... AND today, finally we managed to k songs after so many weeks of planning. We wanted to go k songs since last few weeks but every time we have something that obstructed our way such as falling sick... We sang duet songs today. Haha, those duet songs that i dedicated were high in pitch for the male part. That's y he suffered a lot today. I realy enjoyed the things we have done so far.... Guess he will never know all these things about how i thought. Let him discover these eventually lo...

We also bought couple tee shirts today. It was somehow identical and hopefully this time is a sucess. Y i say so? Cuz before we got together officially, we bought the elmo shirt together. However, he didn't wear that ever since we bought cuz the neck area is too big. He doesn't like the cutting. Actually the shirt which i bought just now was also not in gd conditon as there are some stains on the neck area. It's a white colour shirt but i still risk and bought it cuz it's the last piece. Hopefully, the stains can be removed easily....

Haiz, next week can only meet him during Sarah's birthday chalet... Hope he will be able to make it... =D

The last session of SSM lesson

OMG! Can't believe this day has come! It is our last day of nightmare from now on... No need to worry about not enough rest on sunday night because of this SSM lesson on every mon which causes my main monday blue for the whole semester. For this whole semester before i got to know him, i will be very relectant to go out and have fun on every sunday. However, i don't care so much now. Haha...

Although it's our last session for this service methodlogy class, i somehow feel super high and sad today. High because i can finally break free from the restriction of 'ah-ma' highstyle for every mon. I can finally go and have a peaceful hair cut this week. I can't believe that the service instructor who is all along the fiercest one, is so out-going after the de-brief today. Really have fun through out the semester regardless of the tough times that we all have gone through together.

Veralyn, my fren and i were stewards this lesson. We were so tired as the plates kept coming into the washing point like nobody business. We kept washing and cleaning the used plates with determination. As some point of time, i felt like giving up as i was really really tired. Now my shoulders and back are aching.... So glad that Veralyn gave me a short shoulder massage after the de brief.... haha!

We manage to hit and exceedthe sales target at 2000 OVER dollars! woosh!!! so happy that Veralyn and my hard work didn't go into the drain. We washed so many plates today and if we didnt hit the target, we will be damn pisseed! Yeah Yeah! Good job everyone!!!! Well done..... =)

On last sat, it was national day. He and myself decided to go n explore the southern ridge in the afternoon and then proceed to watch the firework at night. However, there was a change of plan and we joined his army friends for the day. At first, i was quite unhappy why he will always want to join his friends during our date. I was somehow quite unhappy with my tone during the call but i do not think that he knowwhat's in my mind. I decided to give in as i know he does not have much time for his friends since he is with me.

We went to eat Yuki yaki with his friends. I was so touched by an event. One of his friends proposed to his gf during the fireworks at marina area. We were not there during the proposal but i can feel the sweetness from the couple. The guy kneeled down in front of the gal and gave her the diamond ring that worths more than 2000 over dollars. I think i will be moved to tears if i were the female lead. hahahaha.... All his friends there are older than me. It seems like i'm the youngest among them. At some point of time, i will be the quietest as i do not know what to say in their conversation. All of them are talking about marriage stuff like where to get for their housing, ROM,wedding photo shooting etc... I was really envy with them as they are at the suitable age to get married.

i shall stop here for today. Got to revise my deadly geo test which is tml.... omg omg.... haiz. i seem to be unable to absorb a lot of facts for this subject.... sobx.....

Little mouse is falling sick....

Xiao lao shu is sicked.... Went to the Tampines Polyclinic this afternoon as i really can't stand the cough anymore. I had been waking up in the middle of the night for the past few days because of this. I hope i will recover soon so that i can go out happilly with him on the coming weekend. Actually i was somehow very happy that one of my guy friend accompanied me to see doctor just now or else i wiould be very bored and maybe will even faint there cuz of lonliness. haha... a bit exaggerating right.... He was there to keep me occupied so that i will not look like a patient. Why is he so nice lei... hahaha. of cuz he wants to repay me la. I lend him all my lectures notes for last friday, that's why he act as if he was my dad la. We look like father and daughter going to the clinic sia...

Although i really hope Jerald will be the one to accompany me when i need him, i know i can't be so unreasonable. He is busy at work and he is so far away from me in terms of location. I really hate this man. I had a very bad experience last year about this circumstance. Last year, i suffered from a pro-longed stomach discomfort. I had gone to more than 3 doctors and spent significant amount of money for this sickness. My ex is also a workaholic. He has no time to accompany me to the doctor.

Everytime, when i feel realy sad about this, he will never know about it. It was really fortunate of me to have others to support me such as my colleagues and family. They are really the ones who showed true concern but not my ex. Let's stop talking about him. Mentioning about him will make my mood down.

Btw, i will like to thank Joey, my cousin, that she helped me to re-design this blog. I really like the header picture man... Thanks, Joey! This blog now look more refreshing in terms of appearance... hahaha....

I can feel that the cough medicine will cause heavy drowsiness.... I set alarm at 6pm jus now and i couldn'treally wake myself up. Omg.... That is a killer. I'm afraid i will fall asleep before he reach home later. argh.... nope nope... must keep myself awake first ar.... go n revise my geo test later ba...

A month of sweet life

Yesterday, it was our first one month anniversay. I was really happy that we actually had made it to one month. For the past one month, it was really my happiest momemnt when i'm with him. He may not seems to be a perfect guy in other's eye but i know he is trying hard to be a wonderful bf of mine. He is willing to sacrifice his time for me and accompany me to do the things which i want to. In this relationship, i learnt to give and take. Our timing may not be as flexible as other couples, i am quite content with the life we have now. Chatting on the phone every night just before we go to sleep even though we may be out of topics at times.

I was somehoe touched that he is willing to give up his time in gym with his friends yesterday and went out with me for dinner. He said that gf is of cuz more important. He also respect me in terms of informing me that he will be going out for a meal with a gal tml be4 hand. Guess he must be afraid that i will be misunderstood if he choose not to tell me. I cherish this kind of mutual respect. In the past, if i know that my bf is going out with a gal, i will start to think a lot. I think as a person grows, one's thinking will change. Guess this is a good thing.

I gave him a little surprise after we part at the bus stop. I message him to look for a little card in the kino's plastic bag. I slotted inside the bag when he was going to the toilet earlier on. I can feel that he is very glad to receive such a card from me. I hope such element of surprise can bright up his life. I only hope that he will be happy. His happiness really meant a lot to me. I love to see the way he smile. It will really make my heart smiles....

This year, i had ate a total of 4 birthday cakes. Really feel so surprised to eat a birthday cake on the last day of July in school. My classmates had bought a big Black Forest cake from Hans to celebrate birthday for the July Babies. Thanks to all the people for celebrate with my birthday with me this year. I really had a memorable one....

School term is coming to an end soon. I just hope that my holiday can come faster so that i can spend more time doing things which i wanted to do long ago. Such as finishing the last book of Harry Potter which i borrowed from my friend last year's Dec, finish the fruit basket comics and watch as many series show as possible.

Yea, coming mon is my last session of Service Methodology Skills. It will be our project week, so we must put in more team effort in order to run the business more efficiently. I have made an appointment at Kimage saloon for next wed as there is a National Day Promotion for hair rebonding at $169 with hair cut and treatment. This is done by senior stylists. Therefore, i feel it's quite worth it to give a try.

Sometimes, i'm quite tired of the lack of freedom i'm facing now. My family is always asking me where and who i am going out with on every weekends. There was once i argued with them cuz my dad dun allow me to go out. I was really angry at them as i think that they shouldn't control me to this extent. I'm old enough to handle my personal lifestyle. I will not neglect my school work as i had tendered from work a few weeks ago. This is the sacrifice that i had made when i choose to be with him. I feel it is worth it as i finally found someone whom i really want to be with him. I don't care about the consequences that i have to face in future. Treasuring your love ones whenever possible....